He is still there, being the critique that keeps shouting in my ears.
I can still feel him imposing his confidence in his high standards and the way he live by them.
The father like figure that always gives me inputs about my life and how i should approach life still speaks to me.
He changed me in so many ways by his training and giving me the confidence to conquer the world. It isn't just a black belt in Taekwondo, it is a black belt to life.
I still think of him from time to time.
- That man is Stanley Yeo, my Taekwondo master, father and fiercest critique. He is missed.
Interview at Deloitte went well.. but there are certain qns i need to answer myself, like what is it that i wanna do in my accounting career.
doing individual taxation gives me an opportunity to learn more in taxation. but does it help me in my future career. i wanna be a finance manager and finance director 6years time. does this job help me to get there? i do not know.
i woke up late and as usual for today dad and mum bid me good bye this morning while i was half asleep. they are in genting highlands by now
went to plaza singapura and mmm.. i did not get to meet up with heidi as she was tied up with something. end up i went out of plaza singapura.
helped to type out an itenary for loyhan's new zealand trip. it was like reminiscing my trip which is really still so vivid in my brain. :)
jy came after that and we went to scout for a new printer for her studies. haha.. we took awhile before we set on a printer at taka. then help her bring it home. her house is huge! haha.. and she played the piano which i felt relaxed while listening.
i got my 3 wine from australia :) brought back so much memories at yarra valley.
then i went back home and cleaned up my place.
bro's coming my place for a sleep over :D excited!
"thank you for the help" "thanks man" "thank you bro" "thank you again" "thanks for helping me out"
After i asked him why he kept saying thank you. he said "i just felt really thankful."
Another of those feeling where i just did what i could to help and someone telling me so explicitly (and i think the best way he can know of showing appreciation) and so many times did he say it. I was so paiseh. but i felt good.
interview went well at ong&ong pte ltd (i swear it is not my relative's company)
then met javin as he passed me back my stuff that i left in his monash dorm. haa yes! i am v v forgetful.
also went to temple to pray at waterloo st. waterloo st. is really flooded today! with humans at least. haha.. it is guan ying ma's birthday today! :D and it was the first time i need to enter a temple by batches! so yea! u can imagine it how bad it is. haa
Got home and slept! really slept! so tired! and i had a really weird dream! hahaha.. fighting some black guy and thinking of jiayi all the time while fighting this person. and meeting sec school friends in it. ok, it is so original and its tiring after i woke up! haa..
i just finished watching randy pausch's last lecture again.
sometimes working with relatives require a heighten level of calmness
When a relative approach me for help. I guess to me, the most obvious things to note are these. - a.k.a expectation (as much as i expect myself to deliver)
first - use the word "please" and be courteious second - please use the word "hi" third - don't bark around (we are not your dog buddies, being barked at to help you) fourth - do be patient, everyone is leading their own life and it could be as busy as your's. wait for reply as it will come - we are not unreasonable ppl.
not too bad, just four pointers.
and its 4 pointers between you get an alliance or a hater.
for me, i just feel like i wanna call the whole fucking event off. though i didn't do that, i'll just be a dog. and continue being one. its not a committee la fuck. its a two man show. and i dun feel part of it. and plus the pushing and shoving to reply u within like 2hrs of ur sms? that's ridiculous. i was in reservists and finding job. so tied down by things. and its sometimes impossible to reach my hp in camp.
oh wells. i'm good in putting up a good face, a good show shouldn't be too hard.
the last 2 laps in the run, Jun Han came to pace me and i just followed his instruction: "open up, open up! don't waste your effort!" while i was all the way shaking my head, no letting up!
i came back with the timning of 11:12mins!! :D
after that we had a bfast/lunch at KAP Macs.
we decided to meet up for soccer and runs, not waiting till next yr's ICT. this has been a really good ICT and i am really looking forward to my next ICT.
i did this the 3 metre jump. i think to me it was a very intimidating challenge. firstly, i did not know how to swim well.. and i just wanted to sit out of the jump.. but johnaton my det mate just kept talking me into this. and then everyone is cheering me on. i went up, half crying and half trying to compose myself.
at the lift off point, i was thinking to myself. go through the procedures, 1) compose myself 2)hands wrap in a w shape 3)stare foward 4)body straight and 5)kick out of the board and fall into the water 6)hit water,blow bubble and keep swimming up 7)dong yang the life guards and all my mates will be around to pull me up if i am to sink.
i went forward, lt jayme took me in and let me have time to compose myself, and i was rubbing my eyes. i was shivering with fear.
lept off.
splash into the water, open my eyes abit, saw blue and blur.
and kept looking up, kicking up, breast stroke style.
saw dong yang, grabbed onto his life jacket and heard cheers and claps all around.. shouts of "peng yong peng yong" just drowned my emotions. i just felt so embarrased and yet so relieved. still shivering.
CO(commanding officer) made us do another tower jump, but this time jump in AND swim back to the other end of the pool.
this time i wasn't that scared. i just went, and jumped. hit water, up and swam to the side, got my goggles from chris and started my slow swim back to the othe side of the pool.
this time i did not stop.
it was my defining moment.
and i really need to thank parrot and the guys all around me.
for pushing me to overcome my fear. i just felt so confident after that.
thank god that you have surrounded me with so many, so so many talented and encouraging ppl, with utmost humility and passion.
i feel so blessed.
and i just wanna keep swimming from this point on.
jiayun u bought me the goggles cos i said i wanted to do triatholon by 2012.
i'm on my way.
with a small step today, a biathlon and tower jump.
