Never Give Up! eh! =)

big heart,bigger heart!

haha.. not saying we got to have a bigger heart to breathe better or sorts..
lame eh!! =X
it was tough..
this period in stagmont camp was tough..
there was this guy called werner.. haha.. i feel that he quite suay.
not pitying him. cause he don't want us to be.
he was always go around fucking other people..
almost e whole platoon had a bad impression of him.. not saying
kong xin,sitoh,etc.. they hate him to the core. really wanna kill him tt sort.
thats why when Sgt Andrew put me as his assistance for toilet ic..
i felt weird.. i was listening to what people was saying and
judging him from juz plain words of others.. i started to back myself
away from him.
BUT
after yesterday's so called AAR(from Devlin's words..)i will call it a reflecting
session after e tired outfield e whole day.
i will never forget something that Sgt Au said..
"whenever people say something about someone, listen one ear in, another ear out.because you will never know that person if you never really is with him."--basically, we are juz a group of SMALL heart and bias creatures.. trying to smooge our way thru everyday
day to day stuff..
we went dead silent after Sgt Au and Sgt Johnathan said that..
i was feeling particularly fucked up.. i can't believe i was such a person.
its tough to .. but we accepted e fact that we were selfish.
we told werner wat we dun like about him, shot him like a helpless fella..
i turned to look at him.. he was smiling.. but inside e smile.. i can feel that
he is crying.. wat e fuck, wat e fuck have i done to let u all feel that i m such
a screwed up guy. he defended himself.. its like a debate..
we are shooting him non stop.. he defended himself..
...till... Sgt Au said something.."will you all give him a chance?"
it brought me back to my thoughts again. and this time.. i felt like.. wat e fuck..
in my life.. there were many times that i see and myself have,felt lk wat werner is
feeling over there. i told myself.. "xin xiong bu yao xia zai!"
we left e place with a brighter, and stronger, bigger heart.
i am happy, he is happy. WE are happy.
oh ya.. today is Sitoh's Bday, happy birthday sitoh.. and thank you for
the many many push up we did for u.. wahaha..
dear is over out now.. trying to grab a shoe, e nike watch too eh? haha..
i really really miss you dear..
everynight can only talk to u for awhile..
its tough.. but i am happy.
at least i hear ur voice..... =)

tata..

posted by py @ 9:47 PM