Monday, August 24, 2015

First time i took a fighter for a competition and lost.

I think i didn't prepare him well enough.

Much more work to be done.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

you replied and said that i have hurt you deeply and you didn't know how black a period you have fallen into.
you told me that i am seeking comfort from the fact that you are okay. 

truth is, i have moved on. 

you gave up on me. on us. 

i was in a deep hole, lost, going spiralling nowhere. 

i logic told me to moved on, and my sec sch teacher's voices been niggling me to do just that.

and i did. 

i am getting married, and i just wanted you to know. which i did. and i have no regrets whatsoever. 

i am sorry, i am not the constant.

because you put in a X before and after the constant. 

empathy is such a ginormous word

poured water into a glass and it spilled. this is quite off. i go oh! closed the cap of the kettle. Placed my glass on the table and bent down and cleaned up the mess using a floor mat.

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some realisations

a cup can only hold so much water. no matter how much more i pour, it is still only hold that much volume. i guess it is the same as everything in life, there is a limit to everything. when the limit is exceeded, the water spills, another will need to do some clean up.

i reflected on this and i noted that i was thinking of something else when i am doing pouring water into my cup. i know i am a chronically bad multi-tasker according to close friends and my gf. but i guess for everyone, there is a limit of how many things one can multi-task. and this is a timely reminder that if i take for granted the abilities i have right now, i will be pretty much experiencing spilled water and the work of cleaning up. again.

Dalai Lama responded to an interview recently in July15

Interviewer : What do you think about terrorists like ISIS and their acts, and can buddhism help this situation?

Dalai Lama : Paused for a good 2seconds said, i read some newspaper and i saw the pictures... of the beheadings. They are masked. Why are they (executioners) masked i asked myself. They themselves, they themselves know they are doing something wrong. That is why they are masked. They know this is wrong. If not they will be proud of what they are doing, show their face...

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I chanced upon this sentence, and i saw the tears welling up in this aged 80yrs buddhist ginormous icon. I realised he is just like us. he feels pain. he sees more than me. and i have much to learn. much more experience to pick up. end off with what he said when he started this interview, "Westerners like to say time is money, money is time. I like to say, time is experience, experience is time."

Monday, March 30, 2015

乱世英雄

"The stress comes when you have three or four tricky decisions to make and they are weighing on you. You know that once you have made it, things will start moving, you can't retrieve it, so you have got to be very careful that you have made the right decision. Once you have made it, I find the stress is not so great because you have thought over all your alternatives and this is the best, you move." - See more at: http://www.straitstimes.com/news/singapore/more-singapore-stories/story/keeping-fit-mr-lee-kuan-yews-way-19920510#3

Friday, March 20, 2015

生气是把别人的过错拿来惩罚自己 💭

Friday, August 01, 2014

nothing much to do these days in the new job. honeymoon period my gf said. i felt a need to reenergise myself. my new schedule sleep 1130pm wake up 530am washup 530am to 545am run 545am to 615am rest and washup 615am to 635am breakfast and papers 635am to 7am business work 7am to 8am leave house for siemens 8am

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

I couldn't sleep tonight. Its a different kind of routine. Something i am not used to. Memories kept running replays in my mind while i tried to ease myself to rest. Anyway~ Yesterday was the end of my job stinct at GE, today is my first day of work at Siemens. Really looking forward to it, doing costing, something i grew to like to work on in Getrol. More pay and a permanent job, my second permanent job, i gotta nial thiz one and grow in it. On top of this~ My business just recruited 3new staff, energetic and willing, rubs off well with all my coach give me the renwed fire

Thursday, February 20, 2014

When a company sacks/retrench you either you feel sad and desperate or you feel elated kinda odd but its true

what you say can hurt. be notoriously critical of what you utter