Today marks the end of the exams for this sem!
It wasn't exactly a masterpiece answer that i had presented to
the examiners, so i am not expecting to get hd...
But i am keeping my fingers crossed for a credit/distinction.
Tml going to Si Ma Lu to pray and pay my respects to Guan Yin Ma.
Hopefully I can get a decent grade for this sem.. =)
Not forgetting that this coming week is A Levels!
Lyon, Alvin, Jing Huan is going to take their exams, JIA YOU!! BEST LUCK!!
Gonna pray for u 3 tml too. =)
Anyone got anything to tell Guan Yin Ma, just sms me, I will convey the message
to her at no service charge tml. haha.. While stocks last!
Hmm.. again.. the after exam syndromne. Hmm.. i feel rather empty and
so energetic(high*) .. haha.. I wanna do so many things, so many thoughts.
Just some really basic things that i wanna do this coming sem and for this
year end..
Firstly, i think i need to be regain my discipline..
This semester has been kinda tough, because i needed to really find time to study
and mug really hard, last minute. Partly because i am working and i find it
hard to find time to be discipline in revising my work consistenly.
Therefore i felt tt i am so behind others in almost all aspects of this semeseter,
be it project work (which XL and ZH and YL really contributed alot..), test,
exams.. i was ill prepared. Time management and the motivation to see through
all that is planned in the time management stage to me is critical for next sem.
Discipline, as i found out, is something that needs some form of scarifice to be
at it's best form. Ie. i need to forgo watching tv to wash my clothes, i need to
forgo gg to sleep and do my work at the macdonals.
I've always told myself, self-psycho myself "that i will chiong tonight, nomatter
what", end up i am on the other side of the room, lying on my bed telling myself,
it was really a tough day.. i deserve a rest. Knowingly resting when i know i am
definitely putting my school work at a standstill. This is a fact and it happened
throughout the semester. And it is a failure on my part to actually rectify it.
But the trip here at serangoon helped me tremendously in getting that focus
and discipline back, even if little as it is, i can feel that i have aligned myself back
to optimal capacity. I do not want to lose this pace when i have gotten so far to
get it. I always believed in the 21 days rule to a habit.
I have been here since the start of october, hence it is almost a month i am here.
and thats certainly more than 21 days. But maybe i need to believe in the secondary
thought on this.. "after the 21 days makes a habit, the next 21 days concrete a habit."
Thats that goal i currently have. to stay at this pace from now on.
Secondly, and about today, this morning i was talking to my dad about the different
mentalities of the older generation(dad) in compared to the younger generation(me).
It was a debate of the facts. Therefore we were forthcoming in our thoughts.
From our conversation, i picked up after key learning points that i thought i could
bring with my for the rest of my life. (i) You do not need to be a genius at the start
to produce genius results. -Basically that means we do not need to be borned with
special innate talents and abilities to be doing well in life. Yes those with such blessings
will move ahead in life earlier because they are talented, but it does not mean that
we are worse off. Yes, i agree that at the start the difference is apparent. But the
production of genius results for "less talented" people like me, will need to come from
the sheer hardwork and experience garnered in the life that we went through.
Actually it could be a blessing in disguise that i am not that geniuslically created.
It means that i will experience more pain and obstables, and that will further
mould me into someone that is resilient and hardworking, always looking to go
ahead in life. Partly that is why i have a very strong work ethic and energy level.
Because i know i cannot compete with people who are smarter than me head on.
But given time, i'm also going to produce the results they produce.
(ii) Older Generation felt the agony of being poor, hence explaining the strength
in character that they potray. "The never say die spirit." It was this video i watched
on CNA that featured MM LKY having a dialogue with NUS students. He said,"the
past generation felt the pain of being poor, they did not take things for granted like
your generation, they had nothing, and that is precisely why they succeeded."
So am i suppose to be poor now, to feel the pain, and thus will give me the NATURAL
MOTIVATION to go to achieve excellence in whatever i do? I beg to differ.
This feeling of being poor, is a very natural element of motivation to make someone
strive harder, fight harder for whatever they want in life. Ie. if u got no food today,
u will feel hungry, u will go find food, by hook/crook you will find it. So there is
a basic need, and comes desperation, which ends up with a desire to work hard.
This basic need for our generation is almost fulfilled, and thus i believe the only
way to create this ('poor')experience, is through one, family education, and two,
through self discipline and independence. And thats wat i am going to be teaching
my kids when they are young, to be independent and self sufficient, and being
discipline. I myself will be on it. too.
Cheers,
py
Been a good two weeks break i suppose..
I get to do my revision.. slack.. day dream.. haha
Corporate accounting is already history, i am done with it.
Next up is my Business finance Paper on Thursday,
Small business and the accountant on Saturday.
Both papers are not walk over.
It's pretty tough.
The amount of content is quite overwhelming for 3 days of strict revision.
Hmm..
I am kinda struggling with biz finance right now.
But i believe things will work out well.
Tonight i am going to complete my tutorials and tml will be a day i try the
exam papers.
Jia you!
Jia you to Jing Huan, Lyon, Alvin too!! They are taking their A lvls!
Cheers,
to all!
Time's not on my side.
AAR of my past two weeks.
Starting with negative points1. I haven't cleared my Coporate Accounting module after like 2 weeks.
2. ALTHOUGH I had finished the read up of my small business and accounting module, I have not tried any questions or tutorials.
3. I have not even started to read up on my business finance eventhough i have finished revising 4 topics for mid sem test.
4. Feel v demoralised these days because partly of my project results for coporate accounting.
5. 9 Days more to Coporate accounting paper after today.
Ending with +ve points1. I managed to move to Serangoon to stay after quite a night of contemplation.
2. I went out today to study at school. Brings alot of motivation back into my system when i am working in a team.
3. i have been reading NEWSWEEK..
4. I am starting to wash my own undies and clothings.
5. I have learnt how to cook simple meals.
鹏雄~感想
Being alone, living alone, helps to sort my own feelings naturally.
I have been feeling very weird after i broken up with hx. I think it was a relationship
that brought too really like-minded people together. But we are not 100% like-minded.
Thats why there was a breakup. I needed more time with her. And i can't live it alone
all the time. Thats pretty much why i decided to end it, with her understanding.
Ever since that day i had reframed from talking to her, smsing her, seeing her.
Eventhough she decided not to see me, reply my smses, attend to my calls etc.
It was frustrating in a way. I want to try to understand why she is feeling this way,
but she is not giving in an inch. Or am i simply not trying hard enough?
Courage plays a very big part here. And i recently found out that, for so much that
i am trying to show people what a guy i am, how hard i am at working towards my goals..
I am still pretty much a timid guy. ~ yes it can be explained, everytime i try to speak
up i feel very scared that i make mistakes, fumble, make a nuisance out of myself.
Thats why i try to reframe from speaking most of the times. Because i lacked the
confidence. I am very clear of this major flaw in me, and i believe this will erradicate
itself as times passes. But for now, i am, in my own standards, still a 小男人,
not those that depend on their wife for pocket money(because i don't have a gf) but
those that are not MAN enough..
These flaws becomes more apparent when i live alone. I can barely look after myself
with the level of discipline that i have in my system.
But with every discovery/discovery, comes understanding and affirmation, and with
the affirmation, comes decision, my decision is clear, i want to become a man that can
take care of myself, then can i take up the challenge of REALLY taking care of someone
else, be it my girlfriend, wife, children, old folks, patients, people who are disadvantaged.
And with decision, NEXT i need the commitment and courage to bring about these changes
in myself.
And when i finally reach that objective? what do i do next?
Thats a great question. Because i will need to ask myself that again some other times
when i am a man in my own standards.
Oh, by the way, i have decided to become a doctor. The opportunity is there. I just need to go get it!
FUCKING 加油 FOR EXAMS!
Cheers,
py
I love the peace in Serangoon..
=)
Me myself and i.
I can only hear myself, so cool la =)
Gotta jia you for exams!
+D
cheers,
py
Argh, totally screwed , my project result.
12/20
but i dun think i can be as sad as zh and xl and yl..
cause i seriously didn't help much in this assignment.
i was pretty clueless all along..
but i still felt hard on this.
its crazy.
but i am aiming for 2 hd, 1 di this sem.
and i need to get 60/65 to guarantee me a HD this sem.
woohoo..
tt sounds like i'm ready for hard work and clever studying from
this point on.
cheers,
py
Today is my 3rd day of revision.
Jia you
cheers,
py
Woa! haha.. Note the difference! hahahahahaha
Wanted to change my lappy's display pic and kinda saw this picture taken two years ago when i was at Thailand for army exchange programme. Compared to the recent photo taken in August! After AHM.
Time flies.. these pictures never fail to reinvoke the memory of all the 'hardship' that
i had gone through =D It's a stark reminder of what i am capable of. =P
Hmm...
Something to note, everytime i tell ppl tt i had this hardship or things..
I get replies/comments like,"this is nothing man. i have gone through worse."
haha..
It never fails to let me feel out of place for awhile.
Cause what i need is some form of comfort. =)
I know u zai la. go through so much le. but TO ME! pls.. haha.. tt is tough..
Cheers,
py
It's been a good day!
haha..
3 groups of people at my place today! haha
1.My own project group mates (YL, XL, ZH)
2.Another project group! (Penny, JY, Kelly)
3.And my relatives (Bryan, Xiao Gu, Xiao Gu Zhang, Shang Mei)
haha.. it was quite alot of attention at first. cause i was trying to split
my attention with my project work group (sorry guys =X)
and spend some time with my relatives and my always energetic cousin.
Haha..
But in the end, we did had some good project progress, and the girls
i think managed to achieve some level of progress. haha..
Good day!
Not to mention she looks great!
Cheers,
py
