a place i wanna be in.
army life can be sometimes quite an interesting,yet at other times, irritating and helpless place..i am not suppose to talk so much about army.. so i should try to talk less about it
haha.. military regulation in process..
there are alot of times in camp i faced alot of problems.. and feel really stress.. mentally. emotionally. physically. it comes from all direction
although i am the one that is feeling this way.. but, i know there is this person that is suffering.. more than i am.
that is jasmine. my girlfriend.
it has been really tough for her.. she has commitment to many many things in this world.. she worries about her parents, her sister, her housework, her studies. other than all these .. she has to help out in her cca and also an organization outside.. it is really pack. sometimes i will sit down and look sumwhere.. staring into blankness. i will wonder how dear is ever going to cope with all these... but she did. she tried to take things as it comes. do everything she likes up to her best of her ability. she never stops. she keeps going.. she always say, " i am happy ar, doing e things i like." sometimes i wonder if she is trying to console herself. but after 6 mths i have been so close to you, dear.. i feel that u are really strong.
it is a fact of life
even the strongest needs someone to depend on.
dear i am always here. although far from you. i am always here.
don't hesistate to call me or msg me, or juz drop me a mail, or even write me a letter bout it.
it is tough,being,growing up.
i am feeling the pinch of reality too.. juz like you.
however i do not back down from it. there has been some failures in my life i am currently going thru.
but like you. i am standing strong.
these 8 months.. it is a period that we are suppose to think of us, and juz us. think bout it.. trying to really figure each other thru thinking.. so far, things has been quite a roller coaster, and i predict that it might still be long till we are on track to being stable.
i am a guy that will never give up. that is e kind of guy i am.
lets jia you. =)
there are alot of things that i wanna tell you dear. and there are also alot of things that i wanna know, because i am quite puzzled and i wanna ask . wat better place than here eh? haha..
dear many a times.. i wonder if i should try to give dear more free time or not. as u know, i am always msging you, almost non stop, 24/7. and always call whenever i feel like.. sometimes i listen to dear's words.. i am not really sure dear is ok with me calling or msging so often. and i will go into a big round round all over again.. thinking and thinking of the same qns. dear don't reply as frequently as before. is it because of this 8 months break we are in? or because you are so busy,which you are now.. i believe dear provided me with an answer before.. and it is that you are busy.. and when you are doing sth, you dun really check ur hp and sometimes its because of e time, if its too late, you will think that i need rest. and never reply, or call back.
dear the fact is that, in camp, ( iknow you hear this alot o times le..) i miss you.
i want to hear your voice, anything that i can get contact with you, i wanna give it a try.
and many a times, i feel that i made u really irritated and frustrated. i will think that
my msges really made you feel like a real bored.. every time asking the same thing,"are you busy?
having dinner? telling you about e things that happened in camp"
i try my best to grab your attention. i admit to that. and dear, if u feel that you have enough
of these nonsense from me.. haha.. tell me alright? juz tell me to msg less.. call less..
for now. i shld try to cut down.
tell me about wat u think eh? pls pls? haha..
i feel that i am starting to figure out dear more and more.
but i need that special time with you, once a week(if possible), e night chats..once inawhile de jiayou, de miss you. do you need them too dear?
i sometimes think.. why can't i be on top of ur priority list, so that dear can really make more time for us. dear, opportunities are not always given, we have to make them too.
okok. dear, breathe in.. breathe out.. this is alot o things to digest.
really alot.
but dear, i understand our situation now.
lets take it step by step eh? thats wat u are emphasizing eh? haha..
i hope i hit e jackpot on that..
i miss you.
peng yong
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