Never Give Up! eh! =)

random thoughts

hi there... training and training still marks me with alot of injuries,
sweat, improvements and alot of thoughts.. i have been wondering of alot of things
nowadays.. i do not know if i am wasting my time, but i do know that if i do not
think of these stuff, i will definitely not be able to sleep at night. i guess that is
me ba. i did not follow up on the things i wanted to do. that shows a super lack of
discipline and more than that. i am missing one word that describes it all. this word
hit me like so many times when i am playing fm07 these two days. courage.
a person with courage will not only juz be the real gung ho guy, but also someone
that knows what he wants and go for it. i feel that this courage of mine is pretty much
gone. maybe its my A'levels disappointment, maybe it is my sucky performance in army,
maybe its the many break ups that tore me apart and took time to piece back.. i guess
its all of them, but all these are not factors if i have the will.. am reading the book the 8th
habit of highly effective person. they keep enforcing the word, ''voice''. this voice is a thing
that everyone is born with, its in lame-man terms called ..''your calling'', a voice that tells
u wat is right, what is wrong.. what should u do and not do, what u really wanna do or not..
what is my calling, that is one of the question that i am thinking in the aid of solving my
life. my future. the book almost emphasizes the point of choice through this fucnction..
STIMULUS->FREEDOM TO CHOOSE->RESPONSE. the essence of this is that between
the stimulus(your environment/bringup/situation/etc that affects u) and response(what
u will physically do), there is this function of freedom to choose. this sentence in the book
rep this.. "we are self-determining through our choices. If we have given away your present
to the past, do we need to give away our future also?'' basically, i feel that if i am going
to be successful..to be successful in my way.. i will need to really do something that i like,
make sure that i balance all the facets of my life(emotional\
,mentalalways aim to get better, and ya..have confidence have courage>,physically,
and spiritual..<>..although i
say so.. i know i will not have the discipline to follow through. partly because i still do not
have the drive(in compared to last time), direction..(dunno wat to study ..) .. and my weak
emotional quotient is low..
haix.. i hope i can find the light soon. i believe, soon.

this sunday is competition day. papa mama going to genting today.
hope everyone is safe and god bless all..

py
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posted by py @ 11:50 PM