Never Give Up! eh! =)

when i was sick the past 4 days. I rested alot on my sofa bed.
Whilst in my state of recovery, i tried to move away from the
fever ridden self, away from my body, i left and went to meet
my soul. I thought to myself, things are so special, all around me.
Almost immediately, i stare at the sky for so long, i drank my
water and felt the water ran down my throat, the sms from
concerned friends suddenly almost brought some tears to my
eyes.

Those little things in life. That seemed almost negligible before
this ill-stinct period suddenly became so apparent.
These are observation skills that everyone(other than the disabled)
posses. But we do not realise the importance of them, until dire
situations. Ie. illness, near-death. Everyone should to utilize it
when we are all well.

Last Thursday when i went back to office, i went back whilst really
sick. I was feeling cold, and shivering unstoppably. I thought to
myself, am i sick- I GUESS SO, why am i back to office-I NEED
TO GET MY JOURNALS DONE. These were automatic. I did not
think much before i answer them. Maybe Elyn is right, i am alike
her, a workaholic. Always thinking of work.
After completing work, i went to see doctor at primehealth clinic,
there, i was feeling worse, but there are ppl around tt are here
for a really different reasons. Some like the Malay 'Chek' whose
here for a preemployment check-up, a foreign indian couple who
i believe are from london, here for a couple body check up, a kid
with her mum think also here for fever. We were all strangers.
I started to talk to them, one by one, i tried to talk. At first the
kid's mum did not bother to talk to me, but after awhile,
everyone was talking, joking around. Haa.. It was a pleasant
experience. And i believe i broke one of my taboo, one of my
self restricted limit-to be sociable. I have always loved ppl,
i have always loved being around people. I feel v alive when i
am able to talk to them. And i believe i proved to myself that
day that i can talk to everyone and anyone. I just can.
And most importantly, the warmth, when everyone, strangers,
started to talk to each other, giggle, laughters exploding,
it is heart warming. Who says strangers remain strangers?
haa.. nonsense.

Cheers,
py

posted by py @ 9:50 PM