thoughts again.. feel irregular these days. . .
I am so tired with myself.
Sometimes i need to listen to others bit more.
I tend to think too much about myself.
When really there is nothing really ta be proud about.
Haha..
It's a good time, new year is coming.
Wishing everyone a Happy New Year!
Cheers,
py
There are so many things that i need to better myself in.
Sometimes i tend to be too "OvEr"
Because of my past experiences that i believe were things that
put me one up in many areas in life.
But...
There are just so many things else in life that i have yet to be the
best in, yet.
It's frustrating that i am frustrated with myself.
I guess i will smile whenever there is a challenge.
I guess that's life...
and i'll be humble yet sharp in my views.
This way, i guess i might be a happier person.
haha..
py
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Sometimes things just haven't been working out well..
Even when you have put in your 110% worth of effort.
It's pretty much how life is?
I guess so..
Somehow that's the only way that i know of to live my life..
Which is to work hard.
I believe things happen for a reason.
It's just that it's not the moment yet.
So yea..
No point being too glum and sad
I'm tired deep inside.
But i am not about to give up.
Yup.
YVIP Camp 2008
YVIP Camp 2008
It was a camp, 9 months in the making..
It was a camp that touched the hearts of the very people that had
planned the camp and the many participants that took on the challenge
to come for this camp.
It was a place i found hearts.. Working hard towards a common goal.
It was a moment in my life i will never forget. Again.
My first YVIP was in 2001. I was a participant then.
It was a camp like no other. It changed my life.
The things that i went through, it was the same like those of this year.
But the impact it had on the me and the many others that had took on
the challenge to come to YV camp, it's beyond words.
For this year's camp,
the com was filled with talents from all fields of studies and work.
There are no doubts conflicts and quarrels, hidden feelings and expression.
But there was no doubt we want the camp to be the best in the 20 years of
YVIP's existence. It happened just that way.
Afew things i wanna highlight, things that to me was precious to me. That i will
never forget.
There were multiple times when i felt that i am too tired to go on.
But something just kept nagging at my back of my brain. -py, wat u do now determines
the level of learning the parts(participants) will get. U dun do it now, everything will just
stop and come to a stand still. I know this will sound lame to many.. but moving the
tables and benches everyday, making sure i come out with the best plan for mesting(food
distribution) is tiring work. But like Chang You, i am blessed with a strong body.
So manual work, i do. And i make sure things went the best that i could.
The attachment talk on role playing was great! I didn't thought through the plan alot.
Because by that point, MS was pretty much in-charge, he was more sure of the plans
that i did. Partly because i was in Taiwan. But he did a great job spreading the info
on attachment to the parts. And i am happy that everyone had fun and learnt something
from it.
A place like home.
The TF trashing session was saddening.. But we all saw it coming..
It was inevitable. The guys were too luan at times. And i thought they had a good wake up
call.. I have gone through that last yr, and i know how it feels.. Its v heartbreaking, blood boiling.
I hope the TFs do not take this personally and will see this from a positive light. I believe
they did. +) JIAYOU TFS!! I don't know if i have said this before to you guys, and i dunno
how many tf's will read my blog. I believe i have a great bunch of TFs this year, very much
better than the past few years of yv. =) I believe i told MS that many times and we never
once doubted the strength and abilities of the TFs. U guys simply rockz!
The comm trashing session. I SERIOUSLY didn't see it coming.
I thought there was no need at the start.
But after awhile, Shawnie started to spill out her thoughts.
And then CS.. then vick.. Then MS.. he cried..
I felt the burden that was on the back of us, lifted. Slowly, surely.
I felt great. Because i was given a chance to share my feelings too.
I am a hard optimist up there. So i just kinda shared my feelings for yv this year
and as it could be my last yr helping out in yv, i will want to do well. =)
Thanks guys.. I learnt alot and i believe i made afew more life long friends.
After the photograph session.
Vick started to share his feelings for YV this year, and we started to sing Our Song 1.
It was touching.. The lyrics, the song, the feelings.
Sylvia brust into tears, i passed her the tissue, she swiped the tears clean.
She burst into more tears. She swipes again. Looking to my left, i see Alvin
tearing gently. Looking over my left shoulder, i saw Thomas crying uncontroably.
Looking to my right. Hui Li gave me a smile. And i smiled back, with tears in my eyes
and down my cheeks. i didn't see Hui Li cry. But she is affected.
We sang Our Song 1 again. It was great. Everyone was crying.
Some parts were affected too.
It was an emotional afternoon. An afternoon i will never forget.
Pardon me for not knowing how to describe what i have learnt or experienced.
I Just felt it's the defining moment in my life, that day, that afternoon.
Thanks guys =)
Looking forward,
YVIP-Attachment.
Cheers,
py
