Tuesday, September 28, 2010


sometimes reward don't come the way i want it to.
i feel suprised
sometimes criticism don't come the way i want it to.
i feel tired

posted by py @ 4:57 PM 0 Comments

Sunday, September 26, 2010


自己跌到，自己爬起来。

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Sometimes its not the quantity, but the quality time
Spent together.

Tonight. Felt great! Saw each other.
Best Way to close a week.

Long week ahead.. =) smile!
Jia you yea, hl!

posted by py @ 11:29 PM 0 Comments

Saturday, September 25, 2010


U know, I have planned a good 2 hours dinner cum
Chill out at my place. Mmm.. I actually thought of
What to cook and the conduct, the details.

So yea.. It was really disheartening to know that
I do not have that 2hr time slot. Mmm.. I understand
It is not your fault. Cause there are really so
Many things to do..assignments, exams, tuition,
Class. And I know better than anyone how exhausted
You are now. I should be more unds than anyone
Towards u. But I just felt bit sian now..

Pardon me.

Yup, hopefully I get to see u next week. =D

Jia you for tomorrow! A long long day!
Remember to take care of yourself! Rem to
Eat when its time to eat and hydrate urself.

Oh great. I am sounding like a mother of 2
Alrdy. Hahahaha..

I gotta teach ur cousins taekwondo tmr morning,
Class till 3pm, and I guess home to do ethics project
Work due next sat and organisational behaviour project next next sat.


加油！！！

posted by py @ 1:03 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


work is getting bit crazy today. think month end
is coming soon.
oh ya, this week is the last few days of sept.

jia you!

posted by py @ 8:41 AM 0 Comments

Friday, September 17, 2010

great!
just done just done just done
with ethics project part 2!!!

i don't know if annie and yann liang reads my
blog.. but really this period of time is trying
for me! I know i am an energizer battery..
but yea.. sometimes i fall short of expectations.
provided you guys with alot of problems and
delays and hiccups. i am sincerely apologising
for everything. Really sorry!

Alrights! hopefully can see you guys later in school
because today i am taking half day leave.
And yea! let's shore it up alittle and drop it in the
projectwork submission letterbox with a huge
HUAT AR!!

haa
happy day to start with!

py

posted by py @ 7:15 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

budget is driving me crazy!

i am terribly stuck at the cashflow part because there
are so much info to look at.

and i realised afew things when i was looking through
whatever yh and celeste did for budget and every other
stuff they did. (btw yh is my ex manager and celeste my
ex supervisor)

they do their filing so well! and i am just doing the
bare minimum.. that is why i was able to find so many
info. and the stuff they did were awesome!
as in the feasibility studies and stuff.. u know i opened
the excel file, scrolled down and down and down.. its
seriously info overwhelming and i closed it without
even looking seriously at the info.

so yea.. alot of hardwork and discipline put into these
work. i kept asking myself why am i so info avoidance?
didn't they felt awed by the amount of work that is
at hand? didn't they just gave up, even for awhile?
Mmm.. maybe they did, for awhile, but they stuck
to their task and do it the best way they could.
i think that is why they are so good at their work and
i am just mediocre. Good, but not expert at all.

I need to really look at how i can organise my things
well and be (even if i am not) tending towards perfectionist!

jia you!!

guess hl is also ultra tired and busy..
events.. class.. work.. tuition.. and a naggy py..
that speaks volume about a really determine girl.
successful career woman in the making!
jia you too!!!

posted by py @ 5:44 PM 0 Comments

Tuesday, September 14, 2010




Having a little problem balancing all the demands of life.


My dad told me this so many times.
"Peng Yong..." Dad said.
"You can't even take care of yourself well, what makes you
think you can take care of someone other?" Dad said with
a sigh.


I guess he's spot on about my life and the consequences
that ensues, again. Yes, now, again.

Haha..


You can say he is my dad, that is why he knows best.
I do not talk to my dad so much nowadays. Not as much
as i will like to. And i understand i am one stubborn son.
But dad, you know if i am dead one day before you, please
read this blog entry. For anyone that reads this blog,
remember this blog entry for me too. cause i might not be
there to tell him to read this blog entry.
I love you Mr. Puay Gee, Father of Peng Yong.


You have never got it wrong before. All your advises were
such precious words to me. It is pretty easy to know if i am
listening. As long as i look at you straight in your eyes and
my mouth is fidgeting, playing with my tongue and my
face getting all tight. Bingo, i am listening intently.


U know it is tough.


Being an adult. And all that you have told me about not studying
hard and u will need to take night class like those adults rushing
to school after work etc. U told me to never be in that path.
I still remember u told me when i was on your blue van, and you
said if i do well in primary school u will be going to bukit panjang
govt high. It was raining that day and the aircon in the van was
cOlD.. I remembered the words.


But it was not to be. I tried very hard in primary school. but i guess
i was not matured enough even at primary 6 to look far, and work
harder-er. if not i would have been in bpgh. I made it to express
with a score of 188, to me, it was really an achievement. because
i am always not doing exactly that well in class, eventhough i am
trying hard. My form teacher ms. lek is one of the most inspirational
person in my life. I still remember her slapping my face, so many
times, eventhough i am the monitor of the class. I feel that those
slaps and after school period where i stayed with her outside the
teacher's room, she doing her marking, me finishing my schoolwork.
I am truly blessed.


In Grss, my secondary school alma mater, i was enjoying my life to
bits. It was the most beautiful period of my life. I tried really hard
to take up all opportunities to grow. I joined the student councillor
board, took up npcc, and took up the courage to join the basketball
team. although i did not last long in the bball team, i really enjoyed
the times i was in the club. Npcc life was MY LIFE at that point in time
and student councillor life was so colourful! That was when i got
"conned" into joining YVIP! Which proves to be one of my best
experience in life too. I developed another part of me through that.


At this point, i believe dad, u only have 1 complaint and concern.
Because i do not discuss about my relationship issues with you or mum.
I just kept it to myself. I was in terrible state for my secondary 1, 2.
Hmm.. partly cause i was recovering from the breakup between Xin yu
and me. (Well chu lian is never easy to shrug off eh!) From this,
all that i can remember now was, the few people in my life i knew in
student concillor. Dickson, he never abandons me, he just kept
cheering me on, telling me to find myself back, participate in other
activities. Si Peng was his usual enforcer style, he once pulled me
by the collar and into the toilet, splashed water on my face and said
"peng yong, u cannot be like this anymore, nan ren yao na de qi,
fang de xia!". Mr. Steven Koh, one of my most revered teacher
summoned me into his office one afternoon, and asked me why
am i not myself and about the relationship break up. How deep
we went and i vividly remember him saying "If you go through this
tough period now, it will only make you stronger, so pick urself up
now.Focus on student councillor and developing yourself."

Haha.. dad this period of time was where i started building my resilience.
Again, my life is littered with angels footprints. I feel bless!
After that was jc life. and you know too well what i went through.
I do not need to discuss. It was painful times. But again, it was
colourful and i am also filled with wonderful memories.
Army followed and really, i was just feeling so confident in this unit
and all the glory and honour it brings. I simply felt i am above all
other man in this world. Because i was fit, confident, loud and
adventurous. Less the smart part. haha i am not exactly a smart guy
academically.

Uni was great! I simply love the company with my classmates and
i have found a group friends in uni, our r/s is tight knitted.
At this point in my life. I am working, studying and is in a courtship.
So yea.. i am feeling kinda tired in life. balancing all these 3 part of
my life together with family commitments(minimal) and my friends.
I can feel that i am overwhelmed.
I feel like asking for your opinions. But i look at how cheerful how
you and mum is nowadays, i just do not want to spoil the rapport.
Haa.. no worries. i will manage. Your son, has grown up to be his
own man already. And i hope one day i can be the pillar of strengh for
my gf/wife, and later my own children, just like u are to me, to us.
I am stubborn. that is why i grow faster than others. =P
actually i got to admit i am not a natural perfectionist.
i find it hard to just focus on one thing and do it fucking well.
i think the first instinct is to finish as much things as possible as
well as i can do.
U said this is in our blood, your blood line, and our character is
as such.. so u told me to learn to focus on a task, never give up.
Some quotes that you always use to define stuff... haa

"as long as one generation is more successful as another
generation, i am happy enough, that will be most important"
"you are not born smart, you have the same genes as me, i know,
that is why u need to work doubly hard to move up the same line,
u will take a longer time, but u will still reach the same place as
those that are smart. so never give up. got to have the drive to
keep yourself energetic, and keep moving up in life."

These are words, that are always hanging in my heart.

God bless.

posted by py @ 10:53 PM 0 Comments

This is the first time in uni that i have been feeling
so guilty about not turning in an assignment that
has indirectly created so much anxiety in my proj
group mates. I was in a serious string of events these
past month. and i guess ppl who knows me know
what kinda schedule i am juggling. its not as tough
as hl's, she has tuition and now tuitionS.
but i have to find a way around this.
I think i need to wake up earlier to
continue on my projects and assignments and
i have a test this saturday. so yea.. got to be more
discipline, wake up earlier, get my stuff done.

posted by py @ 7:09 AM 0 Comments

Sunday, September 12, 2010


Good run hl! 21km!
Not bad!!

posted by py @ 3:43 PM 0 Comments

Friday, September 10, 2010


It's only when you lose something when you start
to realise how much it is worth to you.
These reciprocation and learning creats a certain
mental model in one that makes one go "oh i can't
do things this way again, if not i will go through the
same old shit again"

These models increases as time goes by
because you are growing and becoming wiser.

It comes a point that you are reliant on these models,
forgeting that maybe there are other alternatives in
every situation.
At times, the most beautiful thing in this world
isn't what these models are defined as/you defined as...

Sometimes they are just simple actions and moments
that doesn't require a model to deduce.
That's why i felt a ticklish sense of happiness when
i had dinner with my dad and grandma around the
round dinning table today.
I don't have to seek love and try and make them
love me.. take a bowl, fill it with rice, sit down,
eat, talk, smile, laugh and enjoy the time spent tgt.

it's that simple, yet sometimes i made it so difficult.
been a long time since i last had a proper dinner
with my family. today's 10/9/10. =)

posted by py @ 7:29 PM 0 Comments

Thursday, September 09, 2010

遇见一个人是顺间的事，
喜欢一个人是现在的事，
认识一个人是持续的事，
爱一个人是一生的事。

posted by py @ 9:33 AM 0 Comments

Wednesday, September 08, 2010


Ok, somehow i think my december is filled

tkd coaching course (ncap lvl 1) till 13/12/10
tkd exchange programme hopefully 17/12/10-24/12/10
tv (hl-considering) korea trip from 24/12/10-02/12/10

haha.. quite afew things to consider..

cost $
income $
whether she's gg
period of tkd exchange/training programme in korea
coach's stance on exchange/training programme
leave not much left due to usage for exam
whether boss will approve my unpaid leave
etc.

haa so looking forward to dec!

posted by py @ 6:12 PM 0 Comments

I love my job!

Tight deadlines, challenging tasks,
budgeting, auditors chasing after me for info,
getting the freedom to practise what i have learnt,
making decisions, typing emails and talking to higher mgmt,
daily bitching of those minute things,
talking crap during lunch break, great colleauges,
free working environment, free internet,
the free-er periods, the crazy rush hours,
the bank trips, the best super visors and the worst characters,
...

haa i am loving it!

posted by py @ 4:50 PM 0 Comments

oh ya, relationship is like not the only thing in
my life.

i keep forgetting that.

posted by py @ 10:16 AM 0 Comments

Monday, September 06, 2010



running later.

hmm, hopefully they get to talk.

u felt empty, so u knew what was coming.
- the feeling of giving up.

but what is the point of giving up,
when u are so so sure of what you wanted.

u are blessed with people that are arnd you.
they told u to give and take. unds not you
yourself, but unds her. and yes, now u are goddamn
sure of ur feelings, just go for it.

thanks zh for ur kind words.

posted by py @ 6:35 PM 0 Comments

hmm maybe i am thinking too much.

as always.

haha..

posted by py @ 6:33 PM 0 Comments


I feel empty once in awhile.
Guess yesterday night i felt it.
And i guess this morning too.
oh wells..
its not that this is the first time i experience that..
I can still get on with work and studies.

Eh.. I just don't know where i am heading
suddenly. i need some sort of directions.

In the past, i will just be in a distraught mood
for a good 1-2 weeks..
This time it is better. I don't know the reason though.
yes i am feeling lost, but i hope it won't be for long.
arghhh.. i am contradicting.
nvm.
back to work.

posted by py @ 8:38 AM 0 Comments

Friday, September 03, 2010


Arr.. so looking forward to this Sunday
Can't wait can't wait!

----
watched "Patch Adams" yesterday night and dozing off.
was a show that is about human, about medicine.
jiayun, gotta go watch ya, u are going to be Dr. Jia Yun
in no time. Watch it to motivate yourself.

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Finished my month end accounting closing le!!
so super hyper now. my energy level.

posted by py @ 4:19 PM 0 Comments