friends are friends when you treat them as a friend.
treating them as a friend is the doing part.
what happens when friends decide to move on to a r/s.
there is usually fear. there is usually uncertainty. it's risky.
so scared of losing the friendship. so uncertain about the
response and our future.
so to be on the safe side.. just leave things at the friends
stage.
but its impossible, at least to me, when i really found someone
i really like.
oh no..
i wonder if i should like wipe out my savings for these stuff
Bicycle -> 2nd hand, Cervelo P2-SL ~$2k
Camera -> 2nd hand Nikon D90 ~$1.2k
Crazy stuff eh.
But i am thinking on the part that i am really going into triathlon,
and i'm going overseas for a grad trip next year.. so yea..
It makes sense to invest in them eh.
sigh! i am so stingy! It's only 3.2k.. but i've been thinking for ages
(hor.. cheng.. ~my army mate that got con by me to buy a bike
cause i was dreaming of a cycling trip from SG to Beijing.)
That was way back in 2006.. ITS 2010 PENG YONG..
and 2010 is ending.. its already August!
haix!!
will see how it goes, shall contact the two sellers.
Cheers,
py
sometimes when i try too hard,
i tend to create too much stress.
Just like a rubber band, the more you pull it,
the more stress is withheld within the band.
this stress created is not just exclusively towards me,
it also affects the people around me.
the stretched rubber band creates irritation for
people around me, as they are worried i might
intent to release the rubber band at them.
they are fearful of being hurt.
at this juncture, i notice the stress and maybe
it took a toll on me/ppl_arnd_me. I begin to look for alternatives.
i returned the rubber band back to it's original form.
But, am i back to the same position i have started out as?
jia lat..
were there times when you just can't stop thinking of someone?
times when you can't leave home without your hp,
for fear that she will sms/reply anytime?
times when you felt that you want to spend every living
moment with that girl?
whatever that you are feeling are pretty much a mix
of your own emotions plus a huge part of whatever she is
going through combined.
its tough.
sometimes i wonder if every guy in the room go through
the same thing.
but i ALWAYS go through this when i am in love (or i think i am)
hmm.. ain't a healthy thing eh? both physically,emotionally
and to my chances to be with the girl.
it's stupid. no brainer. logical.
you sms too much, you irritate the girl, you get a good rejection.
haix.. if only i am like my guy friends who can just not sms/
reply/call that special someone, play the waiting game, and
through their experience, the girls will come knocking.
u know kummar/didi.. i don't see the logic.
but for now.. i really think i need to wind down and stabilise
myself.. don't always go on an auto pilot mood and let my
emotions take charge.
i fucking think too much also.
ie. is this what she is thinking about.. or is that bla bla bla..
something wrong with my brain.
haha.. i hope nobody reads this blog entry.
sounds like nonsense eh..
i am really just rambling.
going back to closing my accounts for July 2010.
got so much to do actually.
jia you!
Today was a good day.
A simple day.
I went for work as usual, and was late (again).. Luckily for me,
my boss haven't really picked on me yet.
I managed to complete whatever i had set out to complete today.
So i guess its good news.
When the clock struck 6pm, my supervisors and colleagues called
me down, and i followed them into this karaoke-pub directly below our
office. So yea.. i was quite suprised there was a pub here..
I guess i wasn't that into drinking and clubbing.
But i guess the guys were worried about me. and i guess this is so
much better than drinking few cans of carlsberg at some beach
near changi village last sat night.. my colleagues are one drinking
and smoking bunch. So far, i only tried out drinking.. so i'm still
really quite new to all these night life.
OH! Talking bout this, i still haven't paid my supervisor the money
for my ex-boss's sending off party. It's like 70bucks. haaa.. drinking
is really quite expensive in singapore. But i guess when i do drink..
its either colleagues are dragging me along, or i am really down.
I made a decision when i was 14 that i will never touch smoking,
drinking.. thats like some nono for me.
Drinking and smoking was something i seriously didn't even consider
picking up. Mainly, it was because my grandfather, he was a nice old
man, died of nose and throat cancer. Not suprisingly, smoking and
drinking are the culprit. These two activities took away someone really
important to me during my growing up days.
Oh wells.. i did drink bit nowadays. It's against my decision. but i guess
i'll alter it abit.. i'll allow myself to drink moderately.
so much about drinking..
she is seriously getting alot of smses from me..
haha.. my colleagues called me e possessive kinda guy. some other called
me too sticky. well they all point towards the same thing.. py is in love!
wahaha.. its crazy.
gotta sms lesser i guess..
i am just taking it one step at a time.
i don't have a good history. btw. (with regards to r/s lovelife)
i'll give it my all though.
yesterday's birthday party for hui li was a success.
Met up with alot of friends and new people.
They were all having a great time.
Catching up, meeting new friends, taking in the atmosphere,
eating the cooked/bbq food, admiring the birthday girl's
beauty.
It was a 21st birthday that befits Hui Li.
And of course, the person who directed all these and executed
whatever that was needed for this to happen - Gary Seet.
I hope both of them have a good time today.
I need afew more drinks.
its a good day!
hl's 21st birthday today! =D
arr... shit happens when i tell myself this is going to be
a better day.
i need a lift.
i love what i am doing and i know what i am doing.
but i hope i get abit lucky, and i promise i'll
treasure it the rest of my life.
i like her, now i know. ar.. i am affected by whatever that is
happening to her.
work's been tough.
love's been eluding.
maybe i am just praying the wrong way, ALL these while ba..
Gotta go for a run tonight
Needa clear my head bit.
ok.. i am confuse.
i am thinking way too much.
and mulling over whatever that is happening.
but i don't see a direct linkage between us.
i feel i do and i want to.
maybe not yet.
but i can't wait for that to happen.
Yesterday - 16/7/2010
As usual, i went to work and everything.
Start till finish, i was kept busy the whole day. no doubt i had alot of work.
So does everyone. I Love My Work.
It can get alittle overwhelming at times, but as what celeste (my former
supervisor) said, the working environment and people kinda lessen
whatever negative things that comes out of the day-to-day.
After work, we all went to take group picture with Yeow Hwee,
our soon to leave boss. And he was presented a pallette/pweter.
(a metal plate with engravings of our well wishes)
We went to Brewerks after that. That's like the first time i went to such
a place. haa It was really fun! i mean like, u can really let u're hair down.
=D We just kept drinking, eating, talking, laughing, and more drinking.
I was already drunk by the 2nd glass. haa darn weak.. but i didn't notice
the size of the glass, its HUGE. and when terrence (my colleague) went
mabok(drunk in malay i guess).. he came over to force afew more glasses
down me. haa he was one crazy fucker. luckily only yh is around, if not
we will really get it next week. haha.. oh and i was one crazy fella also.
I wasn't walking straight la, and i still asked to walk hl home. haa..
luckily she was in the right state of mind to tell me to go home.
Thanks hl. and sorry too!
So much for the drinking and tonight..
I guess my reaction to this is the same as i always conduct myself..
Give it my best shot, and hope for the best.
I'll just keep working hard and smart under the new boss and Fatimah(VP-Finance)
As i will be directly under her supervision.. the idea of that kinda strike
some fear into me.. cause she really speak LOUDER and faster than
normal ppl.. i'll try to get used to her.
I'm still quite giddy now.. and its like 520am in singapore now.. haa
Gotta go back to rest now..
seeing hl today and going to school too! Man thinking of that makes
my day already!
All my cousins are also meeting up today 2pm to discuss grandma's
birthday! haa.. jia you! will send you the ideas i have after this.
To all: Classmates, Colleagues, friends ~ Have a lepak weekend!! =D
py
Work is kinda stressful nowadays..
I am having trouble closing the accounts by the deadlines..
but well.. maybe i just need to chiong work bit faster.
Yup.. be more focused on my work rather than fb and msn.
Deep down i feel like i am feeling emptier as the day passes.
I am almost like not fighting for anything nowadays..
It's really not the peng yong these days..
Am i really cut to be a doctor? I really want to help people.
I need to really work really hard.
School's starting really soon. 8th of July.
Yes it coincides with the movie showing of "despicable me"
the anime/3D cartoon by pixar. haa
Next week will be one hectic week.
Jia you to everyone! and me.
Oh and again..
Kummar: CONGRATULATIONS!! U'RE MARRIED!! AND NOT SINGLE!
(muahahahahahaha!)
Hong Chuan: HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
Gary: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO!! BET U ENJOYED OUTING WITH HL =)
HL: Don't tire yourself, u deserve a rest! At least that is what i feel u need.
JY: Where are you?! i haven't seen u for so long!
Cousins: WE'LL make Grandma's 80th bday a really big bash! =D
py
