Monday, August 24, 2015

First time i took a fighter for a competition and lost.

I think i didn't prepare him well enough.

Much more work to be done.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

you replied and said that i have hurt you deeply and you didn't know how black a period you have fallen into.
you told me that i am seeking comfort from the fact that you are okay. 

truth is, i have moved on. 

you gave up on me. on us. 

i was in a deep hole, lost, going spiralling nowhere. 

i logic told me to moved on, and my sec sch teacher's voices been niggling me to do just that.

and i did. 

i am getting married, and i just wanted you to know. which i did. and i have no regrets whatsoever. 

i am sorry, i am not the constant.

because you put in a X before and after the constant. 

empathy is such a ginormous word

poured water into a glass and it spilled. this is quite off. i go oh! closed the cap of the kettle. Placed my glass on the table and bent down and cleaned up the mess using a floor mat.

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some realisations

a cup can only hold so much water. no matter how much more i pour, it is still only hold that much volume. i guess it is the same as everything in life, there is a limit to everything. when the limit is exceeded, the water spills, another will need to do some clean up.

i reflected on this and i noted that i was thinking of something else when i am doing pouring water into my cup. i know i am a chronically bad multi-tasker according to close friends and my gf. but i guess for everyone, there is a limit of how many things one can multi-task. and this is a timely reminder that if i take for granted the abilities i have right now, i will be pretty much experiencing spilled water and the work of cleaning up. again.

Dalai Lama responded to an interview recently in July15

Interviewer : What do you think about terrorists like ISIS and their acts, and can buddhism help this situation?

Dalai Lama : Paused for a good 2seconds said, i read some newspaper and i saw the pictures... of the beheadings. They are masked. Why are they (executioners) masked i asked myself. They themselves, they themselves know they are doing something wrong. That is why they are masked. They know this is wrong. If not they will be proud of what they are doing, show their face...

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I chanced upon this sentence, and i saw the tears welling up in this aged 80yrs buddhist ginormous icon. I realised he is just like us. he feels pain. he sees more than me. and i have much to learn. much more experience to pick up. end off with what he said when he started this interview, "Westerners like to say time is money, money is time. I like to say, time is experience, experience is time."