hey...
been watching the return of the condor heroes for like 3 straight
days.. at first i will laugh at the ''guo er..guo er..'' that the
small dragon girl exclaimed.. hmm... it was the opposite after i
finish watching the show.. the two lovers gone through so much
ups and downs.. betrayal and lies.. wait and waiting.. sad and
heartaches.. memories of the pain in my heart kept foaming up..
i know i have loved her deeply and we had gone through much.. but
were never able to get back together. i still rem she said,that
she will rather watch me from afar now.. juz like the past. i hope
she is doing well in uni.
tomorrow is the long awaited competition day. i will be up against
the safsa cum sea games hopeful. it will be the first official
competition that i had been in. i will do my best and will never
be second best.
oh ya, good news! i passed my btt(basic theory test) for driving..
haha.. hope i can finish the final theory and go on to practical
soon.. haha.. ftt is on ocy 24th. haha..
i have set my mind on studying in sim. accountancy and management
both sound and read great. haha.. both are courses that i really
wanna be good in in order to be a good boss in an organization.
either be in my venture into cafetarian industry or travel.
hmm.. and these makes my mind really confuse la. ha..hope i can
find my real calling soon.
next monday will be the start of the real thing.. the course we
have all been waiting for and will be the last course. ha..after
this course, it will mark the end of our tour. and ord.
god bless us well. and i bet i will enjoy it!
and a bad dream yesterday.. i saw a person jumping airborne and
fell to his death. god please do not let that happen.
cause i said it out le.
it will not happen. god bless us.
haha.. the sec one guy, shawn, won school superstar! man.. but i
still really like keely! haha..
py
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random thoughts
hi there... training and training still marks me with alot of injuries,
sweat, improvements and alot of thoughts.. i have been wondering of alot of things
nowadays.. i do not know if i am wasting my time, but i do know that if i do not
think of these stuff, i will definitely not be able to sleep at night. i guess that is
me ba. i did not follow up on the things i wanted to do. that shows a super lack of
discipline and more than that. i am missing one word that describes it all. this word
hit me like so many times when i am playing fm07 these two days. courage.
a person with courage will not only juz be the real gung ho guy, but also someone
that knows what he wants and go for it. i feel that this courage of mine is pretty much
gone. maybe its my A'levels disappointment, maybe it is my sucky performance in army,
maybe its the many break ups that tore me apart and took time to piece back.. i guess
its all of them, but all these are not factors if i have the will.. am reading the book the 8th
habit of highly effective person. they keep enforcing the word, ''voice''. this voice is a thing
that everyone is born with, its in lame-man terms called ..''your calling'', a voice that tells
u wat is right, what is wrong.. what should u do and not do, what u really wanna do or not..
what is my calling, that is one of the question that i am thinking in the aid of solving my
life. my future. the book almost emphasizes the point of choice through this fucnction..
STIMULUS->FREEDOM TO CHOOSE->RESPONSE. the essence of this is that between
the stimulus(your environment/bringup/situation/etc that affects u) and response(what
u will physically do), there is this function of freedom to choose. this sentence in the book
rep this.. "we are self-determining through our choices. If we have given away your
presentto the
past, do we need to give away our
future also?'' basically, i feel that if i am going
to be successful..to be successful in my way.. i will need to really do something that i like,
make sure that i balance all the facets of my life(emotional\
,mental
always aim to get better, and ya..have confidence have courage>,physically
,
and spiritual..<>..although i
say so.. i know i will not have the discipline to follow through. partly because i still do not
have the drive(in compared to last time), direction..(dunno wat to study ..) .. and my weak
emotional quotient is low..
haix.. i hope i can find the light soon. i believe, soon.
this sunday is competition day. papa mama going to genting today.
hope everyone is safe and god bless all..
py
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juz back from training.. today's training was pretty fulfilling.. but
i know that i really need to recover real soon.. orelse i will juz keep
practicing with an injured leg.. that will only aggravate my injury and
lenghten the recovery time.. haix.. haha..
i am kinda bored at home.. haha.. now wanna juz wanna read up bit..
and relax.. i think.. haha..
hmm...
thoughts
its super late and i am at home now. dunno tml can march or not, but i hope i can.
will take the first train to tp mac at the interchange to have breakfast with sir,
then later book in. see can march or not. hope can. . .
my leg is giving me alot of problems.. now i know how it feels to be injured.
and the fucked up feeling juz multiplies whenever there is less time for u to recover
for some competition or things like tt..
fucked up..
anyway.. this is kinda late.. but i am really very happy for the IRAQ national soccer
team in winning the Asian cup. man.. they were great. and most importantly, it
provided something for the war torn nation to cheer about.. that they are the best in
asia and they seriously deserve it. i could not hold back my tears when they won.
towards world peace.
towards recovery.
may god bless all..
kinda sad that japan's prime minister loss the fucking upper house election..
fuck.. abe muz win lo.. orelse there will be no power in the prime minister side..
hai.. hope he will do sometthing.. or alot more thing to get the support back..
and he better do.. or else the world will suffer.
py...
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