This is a blog. A blog filled with my feelings, raw. Today is the last blog post of this blog.
There are so much ups and downs in my life. I do not like some of them, but suck thumb and take it on my chin. I had my fair share of loving happy moments.
I have no regrets.
After i left that familiar block 148. I kept telling myself, thank you god thank you god thank you god thank you god. and broke down.
thank you for all that has entered my life, some stayed, some left, some near, some far.
Sometimes when I/someone else push myself down under. I don't see darkness, but I see the dark part of my life. To keep things in perspective. This school of thought, it's a distancing/isolating strategy. Isolating feelings and thoughts into two different realms, so that they won't interfere with each other, and thus result in better decision making. But, does separating the two, really give one a better perspective? I am beginning to doubt myself.. Sometimes I feel like I am collapsing into myself. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!
u know how they stack up in py's list eh? Mm.. then still need to weigh?
py is worried, and wants to be there for u, since he still can. py has 17days annual leave to clear before he resigns. Audit period is over and work isn't exactly tt heavy now.. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!
yesterday was a day where i came back home feeling good. we really stuck it out this birthday surprise together - the guys and abbie's help. it went well. successful.
but, all these while, i was worried about hl's leg because it's bruised and swollen for awhile.. and yest she can't bend it 90 degrees..
Doctor and rest the two things i can think of to help u in healing.. maybe i'll bring u to the doctor this coming sat/sun. rest-like really rest ur legs.. is something u need now.. but i guess its hard as u're quite busy all the time.
then i got angry because i could not get through to u via sms/call. that is why i felt so miserable. i am sorry for the complaining sms sent. i over reacted..
take care of urself and hopefully u'll feel better today.
diahorrea and vomit in the morning fever that ensued when i got home resting on the bed for the most part of the day shivering in fever-coldness and hiding under the blankets
this was my day.
but no worries! now i am feeling better :) think the 3 panadols helped
tomorrow is a new day! will be going to my new office at amk. so looking forward!
welcome back to singapore jia yun!
jia you hl! unds u are so tired after work and studies.. plus u have this weekly graded assignment.. this is crazy stuff.. jia you!!! have all the faith in you!
A product that has gone through R&D cuts the age of the product to zero(ie. It is perceived as a brand new product)premium on the sale of this product is thus correspondingly acceptable.
Change: product to a person(human)
Will ppl view one in another light when one R&D oneself? Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!
I'm sitting on bus 966 now enroute from eunos to bukit panjang. It's a journey that I usually just doze off and catch up with some sleep.. today I think I am not feeling sleepy at all. Yes, work was tiring and challenging. I'm not tired though! I've got a pair of specs that I have looked at for 1/2 a year and I never once thought I'll own it. Now I do :)
Just feel real good now. I just didn't know what to say.
So so Looking forward to 18/1/11 when I can collect the specs. Hope u like ur jacket too hl :) Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!
a few things to note down in my blog before i move on to 2011
just some memories
times spent fb-msging with jia yun and time spent swimming and chatting. the seed of service and medicine the you planted in me when i felt i have lost it all-together after yvip2008. Spiritually i kinda reconnected back through no fault of ur's and i thank you for that.
times spent with hl-running, talking, shopping, helping her with work till late night at her place/in office and sometimes at home. buying flowers for a girl for the first time in my life and the many mini meet ups full meets ups and impromptu meet ups the times when i plucked up my courage to tell her how i felt and learnt to be more patient and empathising eventhough my 1st reaction is to push through what i want. i've grown up so much as a person. i know i am not as good as any guy out there as i am just weak when it comes to controlling my own emotions and being patient.. i suck at these two.. though i try my best to be both. sorry i have let u down many a times and thank you for your unwavering understanding for me. u've unknowingly drawn a huge border in the territory of py_land and certainly left your footprints. thank you for being you and for this new year :) stay true to yourself. ps. speedy recovery!
my parents are great persona. although they are always tight lipped about so many things, they let me have the space to grow and never questions my agenda to my own life. without this supportive culture at home, i wouldn't be who i am. thank you.
my classmates! you guys are always there for me when i needed you guys.. be it schoolwork, personal life, et cetera. sometimes i drift away because i needed to.. but u know i always feel so guilty i have to miss the many meet ups u guys put in effort to plan? but u guys never fail to empathise. thank you!
at my workplace - ppl that have guided me from a nobody to who i am now - celeste (ex supervisor), yeowhwee (ex manager) and fatimah(vp), lawrence (supervisor). i just owe it to you guys. i understand i am not the most careful accounts staff around, but u guys never fail to be patient with me, giving me chances after chances to grow, pushing me to the wall to get things done. it's challenging and that makes it really fun. :) thanks!
i've came to a stage in my life where i will need to take care of myself and be independent, 100%. i'm turing 25yrs in less than 4 month's time, graduating from school in 4 month's time. In this brand new year 2011 i am taking full responsibility in my life and my partner's life (if there is one).
