went for a new year gathering at a friend's place.
her mum looked me straight in the eye and asked what i am working as.
i said i am working as an accountant.
she continued to looked into my eyes and odd silence.
"You should be a police officer, not an accountant. At least that is
how you look." she said.
now, thats interesting.. nobody believes i am a commando,
nobody believes i am a krav maga/muay thai instructor,
now i don't look like an accountant.
haha
is there any task that i can do in my life that will change the life of people?
a surge of happiness that creates a front which makes people grin for
no explainable reason.
i'll do it.
there are so much things to get done these days i just lost sight of where i am
heading. i have been thinking more about how i can make full use of my life.
i have been thinking how i can make a difference to the people that i choose to.
a friend once told me when i was in my most dire state few months ago that
its not that people shun you or do not put you as their priority. do not change
direction of other people's arrows because you are not them. you change your
own direction of your arrow. you choose who you want to care about. - briefly,
she is trying to say, me myself as an entity, does not have the capability to
effect or affect everyone that is around me. but i can CHOOSE who i want to
care about.
my beliefs are the pillars that holds my vision.
this vision contains ALL the everyday choices that i make.
these choices are supported by a passionate, optimistic and rational me.
which effects as a catalyst to move my beliefs forward and people around me.
sometimes people say we are not responsible for certain tragic incidences or
an individual that has gone down and under.
frankly, that's bull shit.
everyone is responsible.
not under the umbrella of the constitutional law.
but it if you think abit harder. and you close your eyes and touch your heart...
i dare say you will not refute it.
God plans our path and our lives.
God also created this feeling called guilt. yea? maybe he knows its inevitable.
was in the toilet showering today after a long day at work.
inspiration hit me again.
i was thinking... since i am running with jiafang (colleague) every
tuesday and thursday after work, night time.
so am thinking of doing something that i have been thinking about
but haven't the discipline to get it done all these years.
Wake up early in the morning, cycle from bukit panjang to gym,
shower up and off to work 5mins from gym. This happens on Monday morning,
Wednesday Evening. Saturday i will cycle to Gym for the usual thing - classes.
I will start next week.
Lastly, might be travelling with my new friend/colleague alot this year
if she lets me. she's one adventure lady. runner through and through.
she's one of a kind. as crazy as me as far as i unds her now.
vietnam, philipines - cebu/mt. davao/manila, m'sia-mt. kinabalu,
thailand-chiang mai, japan-tokyo/mt.fuji, india - agra/new delhi.
vibes everywhere!
I was relieving myself in the toilet when an idea struck me.
It is another idea to prep up my imaginary cafe.
I will come out with a list of positive or happy things that people can do
when they come over to my cafe. and input some things into the menu!
List to start with:
1) Play Bluff - and come out with a hall of fame list for the best player!
2) Throw plates/egg! - throw at public figures!or input a picture a hate!
3) Dart throwing - this is easy, to pick up girls, just be real good at it?
4) Model like a model - have a room with setting for taking studio shots!
5)
love the toilet man
Gonna climb mt. kinabalu in March this year! (16-18th)
work takes on a whole new meaning when you ot every single day.
its like a passion. but it gets so tiring...
tiring and no extra energy to do other things.
i just enjoy the last hour before i slp everynight.
that bit of interaction with mum. that bit of tv watching.
that bit of reading my overdued newsweek. that last bit of whatsapping
and the light dusting of my pillow before i close my eyes.
haha.. ain't life just blissful. and exciting?
I have yet to come out with like 10 or so new year resolution
that i think about every year. i guess till now, the only one
ny reso i can think of is 1) to find a purpose in life. The others
are just categorised in my TO DO LIST.
as how i explained this to someone (i forgotten who)... this
proposition of my new year resolution is HUGE.
proposition=anything stated or affirmed for discussion/illustration.
from dictionary.comthis basically empowers me, gives me an opening... a direction,
towards where i decidedly CHOSE to explore my life.
a purpose is something i felt amiss, and why i begged and cried
to god to point me a direction. i know i need to submit to god
for this to probably happen quicker (i don't know.. my knowledge
is as such and i know probably doubtful than precise. by the way,
i am a christian buddhist. i'm weird, i know.)
AND i noted this down as my new year resolution. i always liked
to make swift decisions-when i exited the train station this past
thursday morning, something struck me so bad. take a closer look
at the ANSWERS that are ALL AROUND ME. instantly, the yearn to
have a clear and purposeful PURPOSE in life filled my head. it
has been so clear, but i was too blinded by all that's been
happening to myself in 2011. it was another eventful year. and
i felt blessed to have lived through that.
this new year resolution will affect all that i represent and how
i approach life every living day. i am more adventurous, open up
and talk to people alot more. i am more mature as a thinker and
while making decisions i tend to look longer term. i began to
expose myself to the sounds and sights and thoughts that are in
my vincinity (while in the past i just didn't bother).
i guess some people are lucky, they found what are THEIR purpose
in life. like jy who always wanted to be a doctor. I believe i
am on this journey myself and although i take longer, i will
eventually get there. i'm confident.
life seems more meaningful after i set this ny reso.
New Year's Eve was really warm. We gathered around in
my dad's serangoon residence at 5pm, after my bball to
kill time, and started to research on our dinner.
haha.. it was a team effort just like old times.
merv lyon kit - baking peanut butter cookies
hc jh py - in charge of yong tau foo dinner
classic as always, we epitomise that from day one.
dinner was great! haha we had so much food and made
so much chao ta peanut butter cookies!! but we managed
to laugh about it. it is this kind of things that i
guess i look forward to every year when we meet up.
We played card games and chatted the whole night.
Catch up we did.
it has been a long year for everyone. and i really hope
this will be a good year for the guys and girls in
YLF. its really nice knowing all of you guys.
hopefully we'll meet after alvin gets back again.
this year we are expecting the graduation of kit,
so probably we should plan something for kit?
i bought my diary for the year. time to make full use of it.
