tues, the kinda day
Been another kinda day.
kinda meaning another day that could have been better but wasn't exactly that good.
although there was no class today. i went to take my m9 test and yes! i flung.
kinda, predicted. cause i stayed up all day yest to do study it.
what izzit that i must do man..
study harder and do the mcq weihao suggest. alright. i will go do that.
+D
good day!
mon was great!
The start of a new week, and i feel like last week could
be more productive if only i have started to revise my studies
and studied for my m9 test. i believe it will be another time
when i have to bo heng suay. hope that pass, cause these few
days i have been busy slacking and also chatting up with alot of people,
neglecting the main purpose of why iam in school. i feel bad
cause i have still not yet start to understand the reason why
i always fail. not giving in hardwork, but i always work hard at
the wrong time and is not consistent.
i can work on that.
alright. been busy slacking.. things like watching YUI the jap
singer play the guitar and sing at the same time on youtube.
i can do that for a super long time l.a.. haha..
off to work.
py
STILL IN SCHOOL...
This week has been another week of volunteering. and i am always
learning, always sharing the views of wat i learn on this blog.
i believe that the spirit of volunteering comes from
sharing.when u go and volunteer, u basically, get into a world of
servicing. trying to make others feel better, making the place
cleaner, etc. on the other hand, u are sharing ur precious
time to help make the lives of ppl better. sharing is the
motor of volunteering. without u knowing, u are making the
lifes of ppl better, when u try to make their life better.
its a motor, and yes,
it might burn out sometimes, but
u can will eventually come back after some repair or
prolong rest.
u, are always rearing to volunteer. the fuel
of volunteering lies with the amount of passion, and heart u
have to make a difference, to share. the amt of the fuel
is decided by you. somesay i dun have a good heart and is
too preoccupied by my things rather than to start to help other
ppl. this i can understand.
but it is no excuse. some other
ppl will find tt it is their destiny and responsiblity to make
the life other ppl more interesting and always seek for the
opportunities to move towards that goal. these ppl's fuel for
volunteering is projected infinite. and
something magical happens
when u are volunteering, u feel happier, u learn more things,
u get more friends, u 'see' more things, and when u are bringing ppl
on the ride of volunteering, it will be so fun, so awesome. ha..
the joy that u derive from volunteering will eventually translate to the beneficiaries.
this, is my take on volunteering.
i am gg to help out in woodlands for share on team later. there will be
a food ration distribution session later. that is one of the programmes
under taken by share on team.
share on team is a team of volunteers, used to consist of a core group of
younger volunteers, but they are now all too busy to come back to help out.
personally, i feel a responsibility to come back. i want to make sure that
this organization functions, admist all my agenda's i will definitely go
back to help out when i am free.
however there are some issues that i feel that share on team can improve on.
such as the management of the organization. it has been the dream of the founder
batch of share on team to become officialise. as being officialised means we can do alot more things such as having our own office and programmes and its also easier
for us to engage in raising funds for projects and it gives us more credibility
when we are gg out to do our task, such as getting students from the schools
to help out etc. currently we are under the support of rc, and marsiling constituency. to put it bluntly, i am sick of helping out in the rc constituency.
because we are not having a good balance of things. we are gg to become
the events organizers of the constituency. and we are not really helping the less
fortunate. This leads me to another point. the objective of share-on team.
come on.. share-on team's objective cannot be, " helping to organize and run
rc programmes" that is the job of the rc leaders! not ours.
i believe the focus must be set right from the start (which we didn't).
i believe the objective should be something like, creating opportunities
for the young and old to enjoy the joy of volunteering through multi facet
activities.
fields that i can be of help in,which i am interested in are.
-direct volunteering
-overseas volunteering
-sports volunteering
-education volunteering
i believe i need to talk to sharon soon. but b4 that i got to draw out a simple draft proposal to sharon telling her that to make the organization more structured
is doing us good rather than bad. ha..
oh yea.. school was great today! Whee! i love school!
WAHAHA..
PY
thurs @ sundac
It has Really been great!!!!!
as in this week. After i flung my M5 test? haha..
I kinda woke up to senses and yea.. started to do things
the way tt will lead me to where i want to.
After i flung M5, i was reluctant to call Peggy my
manager. As the course test is 107bucks. so yea.. it was
hard to break the news, but it wasn't my first time i
flung something so serious. so yea.. i told her honestly,
and the best thing happened, she sympathized with me.
saying thats its my first attempt on such stuff and she
will PAY for me the retest. instantaneously overwhelmed
with thanks hope and emo. i basically told myself to
do everything i have on hand and will wanna achieve now
and now. and try to strive to do well.
yea! it kinda worked =D
on wednesday, i went to do some volunteering work at
woodlands with share on team after school. yea, i nejoyed the day thoroughly.
Thursday(today), i went to sundac after another great day in school..
i went there alone and try to help out. most of the teachers
weren't there and john and eliza had them watch movie whole day.
haha..kinda fun juz seeing everyone la.. ha..
and after tt met up with lyon. she treated me to EXTRA large portion
of tao hui and her EXTRA big portion of xin yi =D appreciate it,
thanks! and yea.. as usual john called us a pair. he juz don't
believe us la. ha.. got the scores from her as JH passed it to her.
Yay! got the score can pract the pieces for cny celebration lo. challenge
will be to pract hard so that i will be able to play it fluently
with speed. so that it is sing-able.
oh ya, this part lyon will be most interested.
Rem u said u were kinda sian and sad today and juz started to eat alot alot
,trying to suppress the inner feelings? What made me get the sudden surge
of conviction that u are one natural social worker, comes from the time
when u said the reason y u were feeling tt way. partly cause u juz got
an A2 for higher chinese. But the reason that made all the diff was,
u said the
ppl "around you" were all feeling sad and stuff and u felt
for them.yes it might sound normal tt ppl feel for each other. but
that is in normalcy. if u include ur own worries into it. and still
feel for other ppl. thats special. and that, i experienced too.
basically, ur heart and mind's eyes are pretty wide open to see
and sense all these things.
well.. JH is right! i still got alot of things to do.. haha..
the feeling of falling into the "hw debt" is terrible.
i know jh.
gg now.. haha
good day!
py
huh? bout love again?
love can be such a hard thing to grapple with?
so.. i have been through such things and maybe its..
something simple like this?
"一直都坚持，自己的爱情一定要完美。但，现在的我终于明白了。
爱情完美的地方，是无条件接受彼此的不完美。
他对我的坦白和坚定不移的情感，只让我更爱他、
更想尽全力保护他，不再让他的心受到任何伤害。"
>>Quoted from 大头芬的世界(http://datoufen.blogspot.com/)
..well.. personally, i feel that it can be hard to come into
terms with .. but given time.. it emerges.. it does.. =oD
py
werK werK!
SATURDAY WERK WERK!
Its another weekend of work, and b4 i start rumbling about it over here.. lets put it straight.. i need to work to earn a living! because i wanna be independent and not erm.. leech from my parents? yea..
work has been great today! though i had 10 jobs(which is alot in compared to the 6jobs usually. i finished them rather quickly. off work at 430. thats really quite early la..
usually we are off at 6. all thanks to the good coordination by the threesome(sounds wrong).. haha.. the 3 of us who helped each other whenever we needed help.
so yea.. tml will be another working day, but tml will end relatively fast +D
good day!
time to go study my M5 test lo +D
py
sundac trip/oFf day!
OFF DAY TODAY!
In the morning i got back to camp to do get my certificate of service for my ns.
man it kinda feel good to go back to camp to get sth in normal clothes? haha..
and juz book out when i want to, haha.. ORD LO!
after tt went to have lunch at changi V! haha.. the stalls are still the same. haha.. and the food is still as good! wahaha..
after tt went to sundac? haha.. with lyon to help out and interact bit. haha..
oh ya, we are not pat tor-ing john! jessie! and everyone else.. haha.. cause everyone asks us that. should i be happy or not? haha.. juz find it funny.
after tt. everyone dao me! cause they can't go for a jog when i sms them. haha.. they include weida, ben alv(who replied late due to tuition). haha..
ran!
yes, clock 1hr 8.1km assuming one round the park is 1.2km, i ran 6 and 3/4 rounds =D
will hit 10 and more soon.
got alot of things not done yet. haha..
think gotta tackle them one by one now.
school revision..M5 test prep..guitar(sorry jh so slow).. OD haven't did the scheldue ..
oh well.. tt's y tml is an off =D
may god bless alvin..
cheers ylf!
py
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end of school!~
End of a day in school! Its kinda great! cause i managed to start on the revision of marketing today.. it feels great cause i have not been able to have any kind of things gg at home. home is a terrible place...well juz for studying..(best for slacking!) i believe that everyone had a good day today and i hope things will get better for all of u guys!
today the lecturer really didn't do much la..
at first we were all stunned that we did not see that kinda lecture notes in our online portal so weren't prepared, managed to get everything printed out.
and she kept talking about her stories in australia rather than spending more time teaching us how to use the excel or frontpage so, yea.. i hope i learn more practical things tomorrow.
talked to dad the day b4 about my weakness of being occassionally scared of things such as speaking up cause i tend to get tongue tied due to my low self esteem and confidence.. he advised me to view everybody as the same. and yea.. it helped.
gg at it from now on.
leaving school now.. haha..
off to driving lesson lo.. =P
py
in class...
man.. it is kinda tiring.. haha.. cause it is in class now and the lecturer is kind.. but really tired.. you know.. she gives examples and talk on and on and on.. but at least the class is small.. haha.. its more personal.
i believe that when i am here, i learn alot of things that i have never thought about. and dunno.. such as frontpage or excel.. haha..
out for now..
oh ya, nas love her presse!
py
yea! a brand new week!
Its the first day of the week and 3/4 of my lecture group classmates are gone, just the 9 of us in class today with an angmoh zhao bor(our lecturer).
As it was the first biz computing lesson, i learned some stuff about computer ethics, and abit of microsoft frontpage. I was not drilled in frontpage b4, so it kinda put me into perspective, actually a blog is really more than what it seems. we got to look at the functionality of the blog and how we go about satisfying that criteria. Interested neh? =D
eh, hey guys, those that are worried about me, haha.. i am fine alr +D thank you for ur care and concern. much appreciated!
Going out to ikea and buying the plates,cups candles, and preparing for Nas and Merv's surprise birthday party was really enjoyable. The faithful day itself, it was last sat.. 12th Jan, we tried to get everyone down for the bday party, most of them were around.. +D Merv was completely stunned with happiness, obviously!, because of such professional suspense skills and delaying tactics applied by me! haha.. jkjk, everyone did their part and esp thanks to alv! lyon! and the children that they made on the way when preparing the candle light that forms "HAPPY BDAY MERV"! haha..
We were also lucky that the delifrance's boss let us use their premises to eat the cake and relax in the restaurant, esp so when it was near to their closing time! hahA!
I hope Nas and Mervin will love their presents because it was done after long hours of conceptualising, trying, drawing, and packaging~! phew.. haha.. it was hard work. Most of the drawing was done by Lyon! she is juz great in this la!
All thanks to the good ppl that volunteered to become public speakers for OD(olympic dream)'08! If there are other interested ppl, please call me at 81282848. thanks +D
I haven't did anything with regard to OD'08 this pass 5 days +X, i have been really busy with other things from one day to another and sleep is terribly needed for me now. Still need to complete some revision on the M5 test i am gg to take on 22nd, revision that needs to be done b4 class tml! haha.. its like 0136am now.. haha..
calling it a day, gg to wake up earlier to do all the stuff tml.
everyone have a great day tml.
kit dun take it to heart +D
lyon thanks for everything and hope things get better for u! anything can call me.
alv take it easy yea.. things will work out somehow. esp this kinda thing +D
jh oh man, to me u r like super busy with guitar now! haa!
merv all da best in recruiting ppl ya! but rem to study hard too! +D
renuka thanks for the concern sista! u rock!
nas dun think so much man. work hard! and b4 u know it, sec sch life is over, cherish it!
hc tell us ur birthday date please.. +D
woo.. its a cold night, gotta go bathe. ha..yea.. u heard it right, i haven't bathe today, thats how busy i am.
py
monday. shang xin?
looking @ e face of rejection is like looking at my own face in the mirror. it never fails to bring me back to ground zero. asking qns lk wat the hell is wrong with me, i guess i am juz nt gd enough and there are other obvious flaws that i tell myself are more of born-with rather than nt. rejecter looks at me and it feels worse. haha.. i believe i am getting paranoid.
things has been good. in school, there are gd lecturers and friends. in volunteer work, i have my son's and daughters, nanny sista and brother to look at.. they re fun ppl to be around. in work, i have a good understanding of the job and have a good grp of supportive colleagues.
there are times when i feel like giving up everything now and just concentrate on doing things, that i know i def have the NATURAL drive to accomplish. like sports(bball tkd coaching teaching doing a cafe-biz traveling) but things dun always happen the way i want to. oh well..
i can't stop evaluating myself. whenever i feel that i suck, i reevaluate. so yea.. its 2nd nature to me alr. so i believe this is carry on forever if i do not stop this. FOCUS PY.
today, to me, was a painful day.
hope tml will be a better day.
ps. waikit tml cannot go ur house do up ur internet cause i have a meeting with my senior. will go there whenever i can. but tml is a nono. nono=no time.
-> lyon coming along tml to sundac? i dunno, but i will be gg, so if anyone interested, pls message me at this hotline:81282848
hope i a part time job in the weekday soon, or else confirm not enough to spend.
py
end of a the 1st week of jan
BOUghT a lappy!
haha.. am really happy! +P
kinda at last. cause its been a pretty long wait.
University year one got le. and i finance it myself. so yea.. feels really proud about it. satisfied and good. at last now i can juz sit down anywhere to do whatever research i want =D
School has been manageable for the 1st week. I believe i learn a lot of things, including alot of repeated stuff.haha.. (as i studied principles of accounting b4 in secondary school. pretty long time ago).
At last it is gg to be the start of the new week and i am so looking forward to it. as this week will be full of interesting stuff. haha. monday have od meeting at 7pm in town. tuesday will be gg down to SunDac home for the elderly. learning driving again on wednesday. friday learning driving too.. sat and sun working. but on sat there is a accountancy firms forum at some hotel. think i am gg, so yea.. gotta apply tml.
been listening to five month days de songs. haha.. cheena super bad. so trying to pick up sth through the songs. and yea.. enjoying it. mayday =D
py
1st post for jan!
3rd day of the year,
its NAS"S birthday!
i will be the architect to this big project again, was thinking of holding a surprise bday party for the January babies in YLF! they are none other than NAS and MERV!
i believe it will be on one of the sat or sun in mid JAN! excited?! u BET!
i wonder how it has been for the YLF-ians.. weekend is approaching and i bet everyone is looking forward to it, me too! as it will be a good opportunity to work and earn some cash to pay off my school bills. =P
OD meeting is next monday 7pm @ Raffles City BK, cannot get it wrong again or else i really a gun du la! haha.. the OD blog is up, its kinda plain now. as it only provides information on the OD meetings we had. I think i should add in some other news articles such as stories of disabled athletes, and about the build up to the Olympics, try to make it as interactive as possible. i think i can add in links to SVC and team singapore website etc. I am still thinking of how to add in a tag board.
my military education has ended and i am back to civilian life. i wanna do well in school. juz like i had tried my best in the day to day happenings in camp. i can.
py
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