when i was sick the past 4 days. I rested alot on my sofa bed.
Whilst in my state of recovery, i tried to move away from the
fever ridden self, away from my body, i left and went to meet
my soul. I thought to myself, things are so special, all around me.
Almost immediately, i stare at the sky for so long, i drank my
water and felt the water ran down my throat, the sms from
concerned friends suddenly almost brought some tears to my
eyes.
Those little things in life. That seemed almost negligible before
this ill-stinct period suddenly became so apparent.
These are observation skills that everyone(other than the disabled)
posses. But we do not realise the importance of them, until dire
situations. Ie. illness, near-death. Everyone should to utilize it
when we are all well.
Last Thursday when i went back to office, i went back whilst really
sick. I was feeling cold, and shivering unstoppably. I thought to
myself, am i sick- I GUESS SO, why am i back to office-I NEED
TO GET MY JOURNALS DONE. These were automatic. I did not
think much before i answer them. Maybe Elyn is right, i am alike
her, a workaholic. Always thinking of work.
After completing work, i went to see doctor at primehealth clinic,
there, i was feeling worse, but there are ppl around tt are here
for a really different reasons. Some like the Malay 'Chek' whose
here for a preemployment check-up, a foreign indian couple who
i believe are from london, here for a couple body check up, a kid
with her mum think also here for fever. We were all strangers.
I started to talk to them, one by one, i tried to talk. At first the
kid's mum did not bother to talk to me, but after awhile,
everyone was talking, joking around. Haa.. It was a pleasant
experience. And i believe i broke one of my taboo, one of my
self restricted limit-to be sociable. I have always loved ppl,
i have always loved being around people. I feel v alive when i
am able to talk to them. And i believe i proved to myself that
day that i can talk to everyone and anyone. I just can.
And most importantly, the warmth, when everyone, strangers,
started to talk to each other, giggle, laughters exploding,
it is heart warming. Who says strangers remain strangers?
haa.. nonsense.
Cheers,
py
Morning! It's the last day of the week!
and i guess everyone is as excited as i am about this =D
I have class after work though, but i am still happy that weekends are here.
I took the plunge today to venture into the unknown, unknown bus route that is..haa
I took bus 54 instead of the usual bus 143 to work! =P And i just wanted to feel lost
and unease, which i experienced throughout the bus ride.
When i see the shop sign "YUGI GOLF" i was so relieved, because i know i am so
near to office! Sure enuff, when i alighted, i see UE square staring at me, it's a HUGE
building luh from afar! haa..
There are times this week that i think i am not being myself. I decided very much to
follow whatever new year resolution that i had came out with. And i pretty much
sticked to them well.. So yea..i wasn't suprise that i am questioning myself about
my current state of life. It is good, make no mistake about it. I am able to rest
every day, without any kinda regrets or extra burden. I am self sufficient, both
emotionally and physically, and in my own right - monetarily.
So yea. i am happy.
But
I guess humans are greedy, i can pretty much sense the humanic instincts of mine
come out to ask for more! As in, i keep telling myself that i am going to treat all
girls as girls, normal friends(through this theory of pure friendship, i am better
able to converse with the opposite sex), but deep down i am still having rather
strong feelings for people that i know attracts me.. Haa.. Maybe, that is why
i am feeling that i'm walking in circles. It's futile is it not? I question myself.
Hmm....... I beg to differ.
I am sticking to my resolutions and 'new' thoughts about how to 'improve' myself.
Because, if it doesn't feel different, it wouldn't be somthing new eh? haaa..
So yea. Every other things are pointing towards me being successful.
I am keeping it up!
Cheers,
py
weekends are great!
It's always good la.. thank mr lee hsien loong & his team of setting this 5day work
thing! haa.. cheers to them!
Sunday is often a dread, i usually don't have much to do. Other than other things
that really need my attention, ie. cleaning up of the house, laundries etc..
But i like it that way, the peace, time for myself. =)
Gotta spend my time today, updating myself on ppl tt i care about on their blog.
do revision. brainstorming on the events tt the club can start doing.
Cheers,
py
It's friday!!
Haa today wasn't exactly a busy day.. Wasn't much to rush..
But I really hope I will be able to get really good with my work.
Just gotta jia you! =D
Haven't been much to say when I think of my life so faar..
Been great I guess haa
I just gotta take things in my strive. Don't be too rush and impulsive
(Which I am thoroughly capable of)
Gonna go collect my passport tml morning haa then maybe back to
Bp to play bball.. And mug.
I so wanna set up a social work club.
Cheers,
Py
They say President Wilson has blundered. Perhaps he has, but I notice he usually blunders forward. ~Thomas Edison
In my opinion, the difference between an argument and a discussion is
pretty much nothing. Okay, maybe if i look deeper into the intensity,
argument may seem more like a heated discussion, while a discussion
is a sharing of ideas and thoughts, and hoping to come out with a
solution for a problem. Ie. My boss always tell me to go to his desk for
a discussion.
BUT, what i hate is, when i am trying to discuss something with someone,
and that somebody just do not want to listen to whatever i am saying.
He/she will lock on to her own thoughts and beliefs, and nomatter what
i say, he/she just doesn't want to place their chips on the table, for a
Discussion. What is there to discuss when we're lock in this position?
Indeed, that sounds more like a debate, where one has to defend
his point of view, but if he/she hugs onto the idea and just forbids any
constructive discussion, why are we wasting time giving him/her some
advise? Its illogical. The only logical resultant of this = wasted time.
Sometimes when someone fail, as a third person looking at him, i will have
a pronation that he suck in what he is doing/he is unlucky.
But is it all negative when one fails? Well.. it does brings with many
emotional and even sometimes physically injuries. At other times it might
mean ie. lost of friendship and monetary loss and most probably regret.
But isn't that as far as the word fail brings u?
Well it's a choice. To tell yourself, this is as far as you will want to escort
fail to. Or. You can remain status quo.
I have my fair share of failures. And i dread them, make no mistake about
it. I am still a human, filled with abundance of interlinked feelings.
But i never chose to(or at least for now) 'escort' the failure no further than
it affects my life. I am clear on this. And i believe the first ingredients to
'regain conciousness' is simply to tell yourself to.
As simple as it may sound, i believe that the changing of attitude is as simple
as the what i always do: "Close my eyes, relax my soul, take a deep breath in,
and out, think of 'what is' and then 'what i want and will be', breathe out and
with a jolt of positive energy, snap my fingers as enthusiastic as i could. Ta da!
I said." Well.. it's as simple as what i had said. A 1minutes ritual. Everyone
has rituals that they practise, knowingly/subconciously, when they are doing
something. And i believe that is very important for spiritual growth and
maintenance.
Sure, you must be thinking why i am typing this blog entry. Haa..
Life's been great ever since The last week of December.
YLF Outings are like so happening! 3 meetings in the span of 1to2weeks..
Mini class outings with my uni mates.. Time spent with parents..
BBall sessions with friends.. Time lying on my sofa bed, thinking~dozing off~
thinking~ps3~dreaming.. It's splendid. Peaceful period. =)
Haa.. but there are certain moments when i needed to evaluate myself. and
the above blog entry are some of the results out of my thoughts and experience.
Today is a Sunday and i am at home. Not going out =D
Gotta finish my write up/proposal for the social work club.
Cheers,
py
First day of work year 2010!
Today was just another work day, running around downstairs and upstairs.
Trying to accomplish my task, and thinking of what i have to do, and how
it is to be done. haha.. there are soooo much to do that i sometimes lost
touch with time and whatever thoughts i previously had. Though i'm like a
slow learner in almost everything i do(with exception to sports), i just
try my best! It's how i live my life, and the title of this blog. =)
I just so look forward to go to work and school everyday.
Cheers to all my colleagues and friends in class!! =D
And to my beloved YLF and family!
I feel sooo blessed!
Cheers!!!!
py
