its been great! yesterday was so nice :) My boss ORDERED ME to stop working and follow the whole finance team for drinking at WHAT! 4pm?! hahahahaha.. and i did. its so nice gathering at the Irish bar and cozy little corner with the director footing the bill, i just gan gan drank 2 bottles! haha had so much laugh and was feeling rather high from the laughters. went out with evelle, so long nv see her and movie at plaza sing. oh was she pretty! had a good long chat after the movie. was nice! saw jy with bf. haha. she was busy looking for her ticket? haha i am not sure. her thick black specs with silver lining on the sides and her figure and how she looks just struck out to me that its her-saw her when i was collecting my tickets. and affirmed of my judgement when she turned around. haha. AND i just turned around and walked away, acting like i'm checking my hp. don't know why i reacted this way again. defense mechanism probably. hope jy didn't see me! no coincidence. haha its all in god's plan.
oh and today's gonna be the annual meet up with the guys! refering to YLF!! my beloved YVIP'07 team :) alvin is overseas looking at thai girls with his fnds. so i expect a SMALL group today. haha but its gonna be fun! still! haha.. i am going to MAKE THEM BAKE! hahahhahaha.. this is going to be hilarious. and we are going to play bball and movie and heart to heart talk and count down to 2012.
looking forward to 2012.
thank you you god. you answered my prayers
Happy New Year to All that reads my blog. It's gonna be a great year!
I am sitting down on the floor, looking at the computer screen and thinking to myself... what am i missing? it ain't complete. it doesn't feel complete. i don't see a purpose in life again. and the last time when i encountered this feeling. i switched off my handphone and killed my facebook.
i looked at my handphone and its 2200hrs on a Christmas eve, a blessed day.
oh God, will you give me a purpose in life. or IS THIS my purpose in life. i don't feel complete. and i don't know what is missing. i have been thinking ike this everyday for the pass week.
WELL.. i get ideas here and there, i was watching national geographic and discovery channel on cable and i see man as crazy as me, building a machine that ENABLES a disabled war veteran in the states to move through rough terrain, so that he can go fishing like he used to. I see people exploring the wild and understanding and VISITING what Earth and God has created in this world >crossing a river -20degress naked and building a fire at the other end and laughing out loud >jumping off a plane, land and trek through crazy terrains and making diy elevated tents so as to prevent himself from being eaten by wild cats. >the duo that traveled around the world on a motor bike >the anthropologist that began a trek around the world and met people, talk to people, understand their unique way of life and record a most up-to-date history on these communities
it just WAOs me ALL THE TIME, these crazy adventures they take.
probably the answer is not as difficult or complex as i thought? not as unusual or crazy? or could it?
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it was good seeing jy today again. a fleeting 6hrs meet up. i miss your company quite abit.
godblessjiayun&safe trip! oh and what's a safe trip if its not fun! have fun!!!
I was on my earpiece listening to fight for fightings and Browsing through the diaries that are on offer at popular Bookstore when a guy with ear piece passed me behind in e Squeezy bookstore. He said sth that i figured as "excuse me"
Haa.. Funny.. A deaf talking to a deaf. Lifes fascinating.
gonna go back to work tomorrow and it will be another long week of work ahead.
today i had a really good rest at home after taekwondo class in the morning. just napped, day dream, thinking.
through my thought process, i think i realised that i am much more confident with my own decision making as time passes and i am getting a better grasp of who py is. why am i alive in this fascinating place.
i think it this affirmation, that i yearned for.
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I think work has been kind on me. i have got like a really good cast of colleagues in my workplace and they are all motivated ladies and a really energetic and smart english boss. i totally enjoy everyday's work. i am learning, every single day. and this is an awesome feeling.
The partnership that gl, wk and me built up has been on for quite awhile and this new spurt of energy after the instructor course in thailand gave us the confident to move the partnership into a more adventurous position. it will be a huge project. and it will change life. (it is what i envision.)
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I haven't stopped dreaming. :)
I still want to have my own farm and hotspring all in one in Taiwan.
I still want to do a triathlon.
I still want to own my own cafe.
I still want to do sky diving.
haa.. thats my strength. it's apparent, it's energy. Lots of it!
just gave granny the mthly kopi lui (coffee money) and she was as usual, elated.
just to put this down on record, the below conversation i have with granny.
granny: how is work? py: i like my job. ya my boss is an ang moh. he is very nice. granny: so he speaks ang moh? py: ya he does, very fast, cannot catch sometimes. slowly getting used to it. granny: I also worked for an english man before. that was way back in 1969. py: wao, so long ago. granny: har nor. he also speak very fast. worked for him for 2 years. he also working while i working for him. after 2 years they went back to england. SGD$150 for one month of work. i happy until wanna die(direct translated from hokkien). haha he's a good man. py: haha.. har nor. granny: guan yin pu sa bao yu peng xiong.. gong zuo shun shun li li. ni man man chi (slowly eat the packet of bee hoon she bought for me) --
i'd thought deposit the thoughts here before it goes through too much up there.
i understand the overall plan for me in this company and there is no permanent head count. i signed up for it anyway. it feels discouraging that i cannot get a perm position and will most likely receive a 1year extension on my current contract.
but thinking about things in a more positive light.
i think my performance was not too bad. and i think that is why they need me for another year and of course due to their manpower needs.
my plans for myself here is quite clear. (aboveall for my first few years after graduation) learn AS MUCH AS I CAN.
if something happens, i am going to audit.
if protect picks up, i will be resigning.
those are still set routes.
phew.. haha this feels better after its out.
am learning so much every single day i am living what i want it to be.
