it was a good intention that i am serious about life again.
pushed myself to the wall,cornered. punched myself in my left cheek. blood fell from the cut that waters. looked myself in the face. the eyes. nothing,only resolve. it looks like i don't want to give up. as yet.
somehow that 'rock' on my shoulders was lifted. i am happy. seriously. yet.
=)
Jia you!!! and zhu1 ni1 xing4 fu2!!
oh my, i'm going to like mug v hard now.. cause later there is a big match!! haha..
qns1a. what is section 339(3)? qns1b. does my law principles makes any sense to you Ram(dearest lecturer)? qns1c. did i get my priorities right? qns2. what on earth is the law principle? qns3. is my ans to you gd enough Ram? qns4. my legal principles, did i apply it correctly? qns5a. i think i got it, jackpot! qns5b. i also think i got it, but izzit too short? qns5c.i. oh man.. i got this too! its too direct. qns5c.ii. i guess i got it? but xl isn't as sure of tt? man..
i've decided to post this in the span of few hours.
but just gotta clear my head bit.
1st thing first, man utd lost to everton, 4-2 on penalties. Suck.sucky.suckiest.-All i can feel now. 2nd i've totally wasted my day. But i'm all hyped up for my night mugging 3rd i kept telling myself to put the past behind me. And i have tried very hard for that to happen. I guess i've done a good job. I don't feel tied to my past as much as i have been 2 years back. That's good news, saying so, i did not say i had completely forgotten it.
It's just that i don't get affected by it anymore.
Sometimes i will still feel that i could have... done more, done that.. Could have really is the regret word. -These, still lingers.
but i'm alright with it. =) I can deal with it. I just want to be back as a peng yong, just wanna be myself again. And i think i'm almost 100% back.
Jia you!~To all taking exams! No more slack. More shag! ha =P
Chicago Bulls vs. Boston Celtics Game 1 of 1st round of NBA Playoff '09 105-103!!
Bulls got it!
haha.. i didn't have scv..online streaming also dun have. kinda sad.. but i kinda listened to the commentating on NBA.com throughout. Tell you what, it was as exciting as watching it! =D
~> Quit the other club and join "Thank God It's Today!"
Quit "TGIF" today! =D
No more "Thank God It's Friday"
I read it from a book titled don't sweat the small stuff! (My bedtime and bedside book for 2008/2009!) I guess i learnt that i shouldn't dread the now/day that i am experiencing now and & should learn to cherish and treasure the moment.. because... 1. the more u dread it, u're brain will dread it even before the day begins.. 2. everyday is special, inspiring, eventful by itself. I guess reading it today helped to reinforce my own beliefs +D
Just felt really good after reading this. "TGIT!!"
Nothing special in particular if i remember correctly..
Ohoh! I was thinking through things, and felt that i have been working towards my short term goals, but have never really thought about my long term goals in life.
So i wrote in my red notebook my 5,10,15 years goals. Thats when i am 28,33,38years old!
haha.. amazing.
everyone should just write it, cause short term goals are just interim benchmarks, the sum of all short term goals = long term goals
so yea! u need a clear destination before u know where to transit eh! haha..
Jia you to all that is prep for exams!! =D
Have fun in Taiwan Hui Li! haha.. Love the place to bit!~! And take care of u're legs.. dun too garang! "dang1 xin1!! " =DD
Can't go on life like this everyday. Just when things are starting to look clearer, i was press to rethink my stand. I thought i had became more focused, but that's as far as i went.
Been wasting too much time Dwelling.
At least, now, i have calmed down, time to regroup/reorganize.
Swipping my butt off any last debris..
..Picked up my backpack - off i go again.
No more standing on the same spot. I'm clear, and moving.
Went back to school in the morning. Get myself all down to work and just revision. Tell myself i am going to do as much as possible as at night i will be meeting Heidi. So yea.. kinda made some good progress today. Everyone is stress now. Adam was really stress just now when i got sight of him. YEP stuff.. exams prep.. Money problem.. project work.. It's all getting into him But hopefully all is well now.. just have a good rest. today might not be the best day. Better it will be tml. Cheer up bro! Received a birthday presse from Miao Xian today too. She gave me a puma shoe bag. love it to bits.. i always wanted to have one. But is reluctant to spend the money on such luxury items. So yea.. it really came as a suprise =)
Thanks sis!!
Was on bus 151 going to hougang to meet Heidi. Was late! haha.. 1 hrs late. even though i left close to one hr earlier. She looks the same. Gosh.. and guess she's more matured. haven't seen her for 4 years plus? ha. Brought her all the taiwan maps and guides i collected from my trip there. And managed to get treated to bo bia by her.. haha.. i am seriously broke!! =X After that did the usual thing of sending her home.. Kinda missed the times. When i reached her block, it was all familiar. I could almost feel that i am back home.
haha.. i guess it was all worth it. Because i see a good old fnd. and i had a chance to visit the places, there were once so homely to me.
now that we have all grown up. We made alot of decisions. We made alot of mistakes. We made some successes. We led our own life.
haha.. who could have thought we will meet again?
Oh on the bus!! haha.. listened to this song on my PSP cum MP3 player like the whole day! haha
I feel v touched everytime i listen to this song. =D it's a song which tell's us something that we always forgot.. "It doesn't matter how small the gift is." =)
The lyrics and song here from Corrine May =D
cheers, py
Corrinne May - Five Loaves and Two Fishes Lyrics
A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look Thousands were listening to the stories of one man He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly the day turned to night Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had He wasn't sure what good it'd do there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus the kindness in His smile and the boy cried out with the trust of a child he said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all to feed them all"
I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small and I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands and every door that slams in my face I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breadth that I have Oh Lord, you can work miracles All that you need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all I hope it's not too small
I trust in you I trust in you
Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all no gift is too small
Weida and Junyang Treated me to a traditional dinner and movie birthday outing today! This was also the first time they rode on car. haha.. Think my driving still buay zai, but oh well.. it will get better when i do get a car! haha.. =))
We farny luh, cause got extra fuel to spare, we drove to changi airport budget terminal to well.. relieve some bodily fluid.. haha.. and after that drove back to ubi to return the vehicle. Xin ku ni men le!! =D
Eh.. after that we went to have lunch at ParkRoyal Hotel's restaurant. It was great!! haha.. all sorts of food.. and yea! ate till we are all bloated! haha.. Think i'm getting older alr, can't stuff much food into me anymore. haha..
Later in the day, we went to watch the movie "Shinjuku Incident". Wa.. tell u what, it was an exciting show.. haha.. highly recommended for people above 21 ya! haha.. bit bloody and well.. offensive? haha..
Now am back home.. Looking at my hp's calendar. not much time to exams.
there was smoke.. zoOms.. rain.. swealtering heat..
Ha.. I've got abit of everthing =D
Been a good day. Saw many uncles and aunties and my immediate relatives again =D
It's sad that we only meet on certain occasions like weddings, qing ming and wakes. But hey.. I am not greedy. heh Am contented.
It's been a good day!
Think the plan to sleep early, like 12 and waking up at 6 is kinda working!! My body loves the timing. I am still feeling rather energetic now. At least i am not feeling gorggy and all.. haha.. Yup, gonna adopt this way of life from now on =D
oh ya!! Thanks to Heidi!, i was able to set up a facebook! =D
Do add me if i have not added ya!! been clicking for 30mins alr on the add friends button.. and typing in those disfigured confirmation words.. haha..
Anyways,
Yes, it's been a good day! Going to start studying soon after a long day. =D
jia you to all that are mugging for exams now!! =))
My birthday today is a god given gift and i really treasure today. A great day indeed.. There were celebrations after celebrations for me and i felt really blessed.
The day 4th April is the celebration of Peng Yong's birth. Friends, people rushed me with birthday smses and calls, spending time with someone special in the morning yesterday having pizza over spaghetti, my name was sang together with birthday songs in all languages, memorable birthday spent at jack's place seafood restaurant where the birthday song came from the back, leaving me and my 4th April mate dazed and loved, a frim handshake from my wonderful brother who greeted me last night when the minute hand struck 12.
These are moments in life.. where i see, i breathe and i feel. Not much effort needs to be put into it. All it takes is a moment of peace you need to create in the mass of the celebration. I closed my eyes and took a moment to savour this moment.
Will really like to thank everybody that remembered my birthday and most importantly thank you for the love you guys have showered me. I feel so so happy!
Looking forward..
Just turned 23years old a little 10 hours ago.
I think my shoes are getting bigger. I feel that my shoulder is starting to feel heavier. I feel that i can do more things with this body of mine. I belief that i am able to help more people and share my love with alot others. I am feeling desperate to do well for my exams. I am hoping i will get the scholarship! I wanna make friends with Kian Poh and teach him a thing or two. I wanna drive later!! =D I hope i will find a job after the exams. I hope my friends that have difficulties now, like leon, who is going to go for a major operation, will be blessed and have a successful operation. Friends that are yet to get into the poly they want to, get into a course soon. ACE , YV & Share-On to be able to be successful programmes and to build a centre for share-on soon. I hope but it's up to fate(god) to let me find a life partner and settle down my heart. I hope i will see my army reservists friends really soon! They rock! I wanna do well in my exams this year! (Still got alot to prep and only 23 days left!)
So many 'I' today! haha.. that is going to be the only day where 'I' will appear so much in Peng Yong's blog.
These are thoughts circulating in my mind, everyday, which i have been working at and hope to achieve with every step i take in life.
Do i feel older? Yes. Do i feel more responsibilities..? Yea.. Have i matured? i did.. Are you ready for my year of 23 years?
But a scence on the bus made me want to post a blog entry. A couple was kinda in a fute and the girl looks awesome.. u know.. like fair.. eyes bigs.. complexion gd.. hair nicely tied up neatly.. good shen cai.. etc.. his bf.. well sporty looking? =)
Guess it reminded me of dooms day few years ago.. Where i had such a gf.. and i was the sporty guy.. haha.. And we were talking about break up. She just didn't want to listen to me. anything. watever. NOTHING.
The couple on the bus was two seat rows infront of me at the back deck. The tension was tight and heaty. Could almost feel i was not suppose to be there. And anything that the guy had done. said. nothing is getting into her.(Obviously..)
That moment for me, was frustrating and crazy. Almost wanted to die at tt pt in time. But at least my point got through to her thick defense wall. eventhough.. well.. things eventually didn't work out.
Hopefully the couple, will get some sort of good mutual ground soon. It's tiring and sad to see such things early in the morning. But its refreshing too, think god is trying to tell me something these few days. . (or am i simple thinking too much. ha.)
